I do ;D

For you baobei

2010-08-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

Haha my Baobei Jasmin asked me to blog so here I am.
I have to wake up at 3.45am tmr so I'll make this real short.
Going to Cameron Highlands for 3 days :D I know this sounds crazy, since Prelims are right up, but yeah I guess it's a good way to destress and besides, Im bringing some work there to do. Siao liao. Haha.
Hope I have fun! I'll probably take quite a lot of photos so..... I'll post them up on Facebook when I get back. :)
Ok end of post, I love you Jas! HAHA

B2UTY and the BEAST?

2010-06-23T23:39:00.000-07:00

Sigh, I really like BEAST and here they are in Singapore while Im at home. Im here laughing at all the fanatic comments other fan-girls are making but actually I'd be just as excited. A golden opportunity to see the boys real life and here I am.. Just at home. Gosh, why did they have to come NOW. If only they came at the end of the year, I'd spend all my savings to see them la. Wanna know who looks better on-screen and who looks better real life, wanna know how they sound real life, that kinda thing. Oh well, at least it's not a concert. Let's hope they'll be back soon for their concert after my O's.... Hahaha.

Mega Concert next Sunday, whutttttttt. Time to stress again haha what to wear and stuff. Walao. Shopping trip on Monday was fun but came home empty-handed, was quite disappointed.
Alright, so much homework!!!!!!!!!!!!! So bye-bye.
Btw I love ZE:A's All Day Long!!! So Haru haru-ish.

To be less than happy

2010-06-11T10:56:00.001-07:00

The 2-week supplementary programme finally ended!! Hurray! Ok Im posting using my phone cos Im supposedly sleeping right now. Yes, I know I said I got over Kpop but it's just so difficult to keep updated with English songs when there are too many and I dont listen to radio. Haha bunch of excuses just to say Im into Kpop again. The quality music of Kpop....

Really feels good to see bands'/groups' music maturing. 2PM (From 10points out of 10 to again and again to heartbeat and now without you), SS501 (from warning to snow prince to de javu, to U R Man to love like this and now love ya), Big Bang (from last farewell to lies to haru haru to tell me goodbye now)....... The music really became more mature and it's so awesome. Really. Even BEAST and MBLAQ!

Recently been addicted to a few songs:
SS501 - Love Ya
CN Blue - Love
Big Bang - Tell Me Goodbye
MBLAQ - Y
Bi - Love Song
Code V - Addiction
One Way- Wrong Number

So nice..... :)

2010-05-16T05:15:00.000-07:00

"We can make up for our 8 year difference together. You can continue wearing miniskirts for me, and I can wear suits and ties for you. When we're tired and don't have a car, I can carry you home. A relationship without riches doesn't mean unromantic isn't it?"

Exams are over. Boredom is settling in. But this boredom won't last cos preparations for the final lap would be oozing in straight starting tomorrow.

Sian, sometimes I wish I would know what Im thinking.

If I say youre the one would you believe me

2010-05-05T07:52:00.000-07:00

Yeah man it's 3 subjects down. 5 more to go :(

~~English~~
~~Social Studies~~
~~Chinese~~
History
Chemistry
Maths
Literature
Physics

Siiiiaan, tmr's History. But I can't get anything into my head.
It will be fine, it will be fine.
Im currently in love with Asher Book's Try and Lifehouse's Everything and The Fray's Never Say Never.
What kind of stupid update is this OMG I really ran out of things to say so bye bye

2010-05-02T23:11:00.001-07:00

Let's do this together, 4/8 :)

2010-05-01T01:45:00.000-07:00

Things to do during June hols/ after Midyears:
1) Watch Ip Man 2
2) Botanic Gardens with Tan for her art
3) Go swimming
4) Shopping trip with Mom for my super belated present
5) Start mugging for O's!

I am so addicted to Muse and The Fray.

2010-04-27T07:56:00.001-07:00

LIM ZHAN XUAN

2010-04-22T08:08:00.001-07:00

Okay so im here to apologise to LIM ZHAN XUAN for NOT OPENING HIS PRESENT AFTER HE GIVE ME. I AM SINCERELY SORRY TO MR LIM AS I HAVE BROKEN HIS HEART AND HE NOW NEEDS TO SPEND MONEY ON SUPERGLUE AND TISSUE.

Hahahahahahahaha happy now Donghae Lim Zhan Xuan???!! Hahaha. I was forced -.- HAHA!

Undisclosed desires

2010-04-21T07:22:00.000-07:00

Woah its been a super long time since Ive last blogged.
I listen to english songs now :D Of course occasional K-pop still!
Ahh, school life is really mundane nowadays, except for the icecream session every Thurs.
Things are not going too well, though I cant really say much about it. I mean, I dont know how to put it, but yeah things aren't going too well.
Midyears are coming but I dont feel the pressure, YET, and this is not a good sign. This means I cant get myself started. How how how!
Today attended the Omy.sg interview thingy and Rachel said I was very very funny. I think it's because of my broken chinese. And I think I'll be edited out! Damn, I really want to know how I sounded or what I said. Ha ha.
Some pictures to spice up this boring and dying blog :D

Bye! Off to sleep, so that I can wake up early to do work...... Nightz

2010-04-11T09:54:00.000-07:00

Woah it's been like really really long since I blogged. Been busy.

(L)

Hehe short and simple.

2010-03-22T10:36:00.000-07:00

Okay I can't believe I am still up doing SBQs at this time?!?!?! Most of my classmates have raised the white flags and disappeared offline. So I am the only one online now. And eating pears trying to keep awake by chewing.
Walao, I didn't know typing could be so stressful.
I gave up on the mindmaps. Lol.

Recently it's been full of ups and downs. Dont know how to say it. Maybe it's still more comfortable blogging in my private blog. But anyway today was a good day! I was super happy. Of course now wouldn't be happy doing SS.
Okay..... Im just talking nonsense. I needed a break.

What kills you inside-out

2010-03-19T05:06:00.000-07:00

I dont know.
I dont know, Im tired of knowing and I give up wanting to know.
Okay? Ive had it. Ive had enough of myself.
Fuck it, why does things seem so bleak all of a sudden?
Sometimes I ask myself but I never get to a conclusion.
Im sick of this, so someone answer all my questions for me.
All of them. Throw your answers at me.

2010-03-18T08:59:00.000-07:00

And so after reading a lot of people's life stories, I have come to ponder about my own.
Sad life la.
Even ahbengs' lives seem so interesting....
And sweetness.
Sometimes I just wonder if I'll eventually get some of that..... sweet sweet love love thing.
Judging about the way it's going now, Im not very optimistic about it.
So.... why isn't there a guy willing to do all that for me? WHY!!???

OKAY SHIT I AM LAUGHING NOW HAHHAA JOLENE LAM CHENG MUN I HAVE FAILED MY MISSION TO SOUND EMO HAHAHAHAHHA SHIT MANNNNN OK BUT READERS I KINDA MEANT WHAT I SAID LOL!!!!

2010-03-16T10:49:00.001-07:00

I can officially say I feel like shit now, at 1.49am.
I should be sleeping. I need to vent this somewhere.
I.Feel.Like.Shit.

I did wrong

2010-03-15T09:14:00.000-07:00

Hehe I kinda like this picture!

Okay so the peepz are now in Amaths camp, and they seem rather pissed/ stressed/ sleepy and stuff. Ahhhhh okay to be honest, I miss them already! Haha. I mean, look at the number of people online! Only me and danny. Hahaha so sad.

So...... TGC is over. It was a blast. (But I had to miss Adam Lambert agh) I dont really wanna talk about it cos it's my last event and all. Avoiding all possible circumstances where I'll cry in front of people...... I really cant accustom myself to that. I was Shrek the whole day and our booth made quite a lot of $$$$! ^^

Today, after SS, me Fel Joanne and Danny went to Bedok KFC for breakfast! Then me and Danny did something really silly like accompanying them take 14 to school, then take 10 home. LOL. It looked pretty retarded!!!! Oh and today I watched Charlie the Unicorn and I kinda understand why Fel keeps doing it. IM ADDICTED TO IT TOO! HAHAHA. I even introduced my mom to watch it. Hahhaha and she thinks theyre ahgua. HAHA!

Btw!

And that's 2AM's new song. (L) I kinda like it. I anticipate their live performance..... Will they dance? :D So different from their usual ballads.

Recently, been listening to Lambert lots again, and I Did Wrong, and K.Will's Gift, and Lollipop 2 by Big Bang. Haha. All the new songs. Gift is so awesome cos theres Dongho and Kikwang in it. ^^ I can really forsee Dongho as a rapper in U-kiss. He rapped in Brian's Love Battery and Gavy NJ's Sunflower and he sounds goooood :D

Okay bye. Tmr still got CCA! Gaah

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
Im an open book instead

Shock

2010-03-08T04:52:00.000-08:00

I am currently a patient.
Had fever on Saturday night, forced myself to go for Mass CIP yesterday, had fever again last night, and now Im (hopefully) on the verge of recovering but still feeling daaaaaaaaaaaaamn sick. I hope I make it to school tomorrow. Dont wanna miss precious lessons. But on the other hand, this means I have to study for physics and do ss and emaths. Darn.

BEAST, Kara and T-ara has a comeback. I love Kara's new concept. Lupin is catchy! And BEAST is really........ wow. I don't usually listen to a whole mini-album, but everything in Shock of the New Era is worth listening to. Really.

This is just the teaser. But I somehow think this is nicer than the promotional song, Shock. I still love everything though!!!

Had TKMB Play on Friday, really anticipated it but it didn't turn out super awesome. It was pretty okay though. Reached home at 2330, then had CO the next morning. Followed by Mass CIP preparations, lunch with Samantha and Rachel at 18chefs, and more preparation for Mass CIP. Yesterday had Mass CIP. Was fun doing cashier/ registration with Ge Zhi! Hahahaha.

Alright needa go chiong homework..... Otherwise I'll be dead tmr.

X-Country '10

2010-02-26T06:19:00.000-08:00

The first time I ever ever ran for cross country !!! I was so excited the day before :D And I am so proud of myself because I jogged all the way without even stopping. They said it was 3km but it sure didnt seem like so, like even shorter than the 2.4km route leh. Me and Samantha went twice, the second time was to motivate our juniors haha. Accomplished! :D

After Cross Country went class lunch and bowling after that. Took quite a lot of pictures. But theyre with Johnathan. I think Lady Luck was really on my side today, I actually managed to get 2 spares LIKE WOW HAHAHA. I never scored so high before sia. Usually my max is like 40+ but today I got 81! Accomplishment! :D (I know kinda nubz but yeah to me its greeeeeeat)

Tried our luck at getting the toys but only Faith got an elmo toy. Feel so dejected haha. I think the guys like kinda sian cos you know girls, we stop like at every interesting store. Hhahaha. In the end they had to keep waiting for us. Later on we went to the rooftop to chitchat. Played the thumb game (The super 'in' game now HAHA) and yeah basically just talked. After that spent quite some time at HMV. Me and rachel bought some really cool badges! :D

Ok pictures from my phone! (The bulk is with Johnathan cos he brought camera)

4/8 WON THE CHEER COMPETITION AS THE

ONLY PARTICIPATING UPPER SECONDARY

CLASS! :D

4/8 live together,
get humiliated together,
die together!!!!!!!
Since it's O Level year, WE STUDY TOGETHER AND PIA TOGETHER K! :D
Omg you guys really rock! (Y)

& For memories' sake:

Ala wala wasa pala pili pala YOG
Si, ba, empat, lapan
Ala wala wasa pala pili pala YOG
4, 8, si, pad (This is thai)
People say they eat kangkong we say we are tok kong
Tok kong, Tok kong, we say we are tok kong
People say they drink pepsi we say we are sexy
Sexy, Sexy, we say we are sexy
People say they eat ja gong (corn) we say we are gong gong
Gong gong, Gong gong, we say we are gong gong
If you eat the following things you can join YOG
YOG, YOG, you can join YOG
Ehhhhhhhhhhhh waitttttttttttttttttttttttt wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Pause)
We run jump fly kick, Lady Gaga can't compete
Can't compete, Can't compete, Lady Gaga can't compete
Y!
O!
G.................
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
(Pose)

2010-02-26T04:27:00.000-08:00

Today was very fun! Post later with pictures :D
Damn lazy now because.........

I AM WATCHING DOWN WITH LOVE!
Omg I can't believe I am watching a taiwanese drama -.- But yessssssss Jerry Yan is very very cute when he smiles with his dimples teeheee
GO PING-GUO!

My new gadget part II

2010-02-21T05:59:00.000-08:00

y gadget is fun and I like going online with it. I think I really am gonna go MIA from the comp so that I won't got distracted you know....... Although my phone's pretty distracting too. But the screen kinda small so when I watch videos, my phone is THIS ---> <--- close to my face :O

Yeah so CNY was visit visit visit whole day not at home, BUT PATHETIC NUMBER OF ANGBAOS! (Which reminds me I have to do a CNY speech on tues during recess at the Speakers' Corner nonsense and coincidentally ZX also kena sabo HAHA) - The speech is in chinese, mind you. Went to Wanqi's house on the 3rd day of CNY, fun! We played blackjack :D Then me sam and cheeyan went to watch Valentines' Day at E!Hub! Quite nice cos funny at some parts.

U-Kiss's new song is very addictive but it is sooooooooo Man Man Ha Ni-ish. Bingeul bingeul!

I like most of their new haircuts. Except Eli's! Ewww, his blonde was nicer. Kevin looks better in blonde too, I think. Alexander looks damn hot in this kind of dressing! And Kibum looks betttttterrrrr, so much like Hyungjoon. HAHA.
"I just want you baby here right now~"

Oh oh U-Kiss Vampire is funny! It's really like Wild Bunny. I like it :D And because of that, I love Alexander more and fell in love with Eli and Kiseob! Kiseob is unexpectedly very very funny and he's hot too :D

U-Kiss, U-Kiss, U-Kiss........ When will it ever be 2PM again? Jaebeom please come back -.- I think Im like even more interested about 2AM now....

Oh oh today went out with Samantha ZX and Jolene to Teo Heng to rock the karaoke box! Damn high the whole time hahahaha first 4 songs and I lost my voice liao can you imagine!!!!!! Jolene's surprise kinda failed HAHA but anyways it was fun cos I vented everything out really. And because of today, I sorta fell in love with my first ever celebrity crush again, LOL IT IS LIN JUN JIE. And it is because of this song omg damn nice.

Today was a blast. Thanks guys :)

My legacy

2010-02-11T06:56:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Felz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was overall very funny because I rapped a lot ("shiok shiok!") and we sang "why~" and ya there was the thing about the white specks of powder. Hahahaha inside jokes.

Can I go on living the way I am? I have no direction. I have nowhere to go to. I have second thoughts about everything now. Maybe because Im trying to protect myself more now. Well ...... At least Im excited about one thing now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gaaaaaah.

Oh oh and I told Rachel I have a feeling I will leave a legacy. Because ever since I did the "why~" thing, Sam and Rach does it too! And now the "shiok shiok" thing toooooo!

My new (black) gadget

2010-02-08T14:24:00.000-08:00

Hi my loyal readers! Lol sorry I havent been updating much. Ive been really busy lately, till my eyes drooping already.

It's 0535 now and Im blogging because Im messing with my new gadget now! Trying to mass upload all the songs inside.

And guesswhat? My mom and I got the same phone! I took her black (2 weeks old LOL) and she took grey cos I die die wanted the black. Hahaha. Lucky she is the type that take care of her phone like jewel. Can take it as brand new! Kinda wanted to die last night cos when copying contacts from Sony Ericcson to Nokia, it will totally jumble up. So had to send contacts one by one. Thanks to mom who settled that for me all night.

Last night was rather productive....... compared to other nights.

Finished:

1) Standard Homework

2) Chinese letter

3) SS SBQ

On the bus, I shall read Diplomacy and Deterrence and Im all set for school! Hahaha.

Wish me luck for 2 tests today!

I dont understand how one moment you seem like an angel and the next, a devil. I wish you werent like that.

2010-01-30T22:14:00.000-08:00

Very stressed, very uncomfortable, very confused.
Very.

I am totally addicted to Mystery, Sign and Because of You.

2010-01-27T06:23:00.000-08:00

And Im gonna tell myself, no matter what happens, it is time for me to go. And for them to take my place.

Since I am unable to make a difference, I can only support those who can make a difference. But even doing that is becoming tiresome for me. Am I doing it the wrong way this time? Is it only silently listening that matters? What about my opinions? They are always left behind.

Life-sized

2010-01-25T21:40:00.000-08:00

I want to sing all my frustration out. But there's no time for Karaoke.
I wanna shop till I drop. But there's no time for shopping.
There's simply no time.... And here I am, sick.

Im bloody sick again! Stupid. Like only 2 weeks back I was sick, and now Im sick again. Had huge headache and body aches (due to crazy PE) and slight fever last night. Started to sneeze like crazy all night. This morning I couldn't even pull myself out of bed. What kind of vitamins are good for preventing flus? Help me!
I really cannot afford to be sick anymore.

Oh a random note. I remembered what I commented on Zozo's facebook when I saw her hugging the pig-rabbit from YB! Compared to spending $30+ on a pig-rabbit, I'd get myself a life-sized huggable Hwang Tae Kyung/ Jang Geun Suk! Yeah baby~

So hot right ^^

I guess I could not take the pain of falling apart once again-

The first 3 weeks

2010-01-23T11:16:00.000-08:00

Hi people who are still awake at 0242. This weekend, I finally feel like dying after 3 weeks of Sec 4 life. Is it supposed to be like this? I can only blame myself for the Chinese Homework.

1. Dont know how many essays left
2. 10 Jianbaos
3. Charity Concert Auditions
4. FTCT Lesson for Sec 1s
5. Math textbook questions
6. SS SEQ
7. History SEQ + 1 SBQ

How tol? Anyway, whilst I still am awake (Im going to sleep soon because I need to go running tmr morning), Im going to post some nonsense that you wont expect me to post since I have so much shit to do.

My Recent Top 20 Favourite Hits (not in any order)
1. Wedding Dress - Tae Yang
2. Where U At - Tae Yang

3. Sign - Brown Eyed Girls

4. Man Man Ha Ni - U-Kiss

5. Alone - CN Blue

6. You and I - Park Bom

7. Love Like This - SS501

8. Because of You - After School

(I put the picture of the original 5 altho I also like Raina and Nana but I like them more!)

9. Mystery - BEAST

10. We Fell In Love - Jo Kwon & Ga In

The only couple I follow on We Got Married now :)

I still love 2PM and Big Bang though they didnt appear here. Im just too lazy to look for pics in my folders...... (Yala but theyre not Top 10 actually D:)

11. Again and Again - 2PM (Yes Im still in love with this!!!!)

12. Hallelujah - Big Bang (Love the raps)

13. Too Much - Crown J feat Seo In Young

14. Abracadabra - Brown Eyed Girls

15. Bad Girl - BEAST

16. When I Fall - After School

17. Heartbeat - 2PM

18. A Friend's Confession - 2AM (Havent listened to their new song yet!)

19. I Will..... Forget You.... - CN Blue

20. Ok I cant think of any to put here as of now so I'll leave this blank. Stay tuned for more of my Top 20 Tracklisting! Haha maybe next time I'll just post 10 but it's too difficult to chooooooose.

Die it's 0316 now. How to wake at 6 tmr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhh k night.

Circumstances

2010-01-18T06:15:00.000-08:00

Ive had 20 minutes of my life to myself by the playground of a place I once knew about 2 days back. Walking towards the place I had spent the first 10 years of my life, it was as if bits of memories were coming into place altogether. The carpark banner which used to look unreachable was now within the stretch of my arm, the minimart where i'd be satisfied with a mentos or two was now replaced by a clinic, the bushes next to the carpark where my brother and I used to catch spiders with namecard boxes, the grass patch we used to think was a field, the little rock wall in the playground I used to be afraid of until I saw how large the actual one was, the steps that always seemed too high for me and when I looked down at myself, I saw the pair of hands that used to grab onto daddy's big hands whenever I was afraid. Ive outgrown the little pleasures I used to adore, Ive outgrown the simple life, my childhood. It always seemed to me that childhood was a rendezvous for me and my fatigued soul each time. It was my escapade but now it won't work for me anymore. Ive changed according to my circumstances but why do I still feel so weak sometimes?

Mom's new gadget

2010-01-12T14:57:00.000-08:00

My mom spent the whole of last night playing with her new gadget, E71. Walao super jealous! But then she seems kinda unhappy about it since the SIM card came loose once. It's damn chio. I want it too, but she alr took black and I dont want any other colours so I guess it's no-hope for me. Next month then can change phone.

How I spent my holiday ytd? Morning met up with Rachel Fel Jomin for Lit drama. Very funny how we found the knife and cardboard boxes. Felt like garang guni going around asking for cardboard -_- Damn sotong took the bus the wrong way and realised it was going to Pasir Ris alr. Took cab instead. Already had fever the previous night. Fever came back, took medicine and sleep. Wake up eat dinner, watch TV. Slept again.

Now it's 6:56AM Im online cos I had to send Charity Concert documents to Mrs Soh for printing today. Woke up at like 4.15AM? Haha. Lucky Im better now otherwise cant go for SLC meeting or school.

Ok bye gotta change then get out of house!

"Oh my gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!"

2010-01-11T06:09:00.000-08:00

The kind of anticipation, worry, nervousness, craziness, while waiting for a single O Level result is nerve-wracking. Especially when youre from the last express class. I started dancing in weird stunts because I couldn't keep still. The moment I stopped, I felt my heart popping out.

Very touched cos people like Jolene Yongwei Tiffany Edwin Sheana all stayed behind till I took my results. I can't believe I screamed into the MTL HOD's ear out of joy!!!!!! "OH MY GAAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!!!" She was totally shocked and moved slightly away then she asked me "So what's oh my god in chinese?" LOL Lucky I remembered it was wo de tian otherwise I probably have to retake HAHA.

A1! One in my pocket and the rest to fight for. Should not be complacent. Should rest tmr, but have work to do. Should this and should that. Theres no "wishlist" for this year. It's all becoming a "must-do" list.

This is it. 1 year of sleep. G.O.N.E.

Felt like shit, maybe just a little. I looked over and thought to myself again if it hadn't changed, would I be worrying more for you than myself? And then I turned away and waited for my turn. I decided I shouldn't care anymore.

First week of torture

2010-01-09T02:42:00.000-08:00

This holiday was full of alcohol and drama.

First week of school and I feel the stress alr. Feels great though, being with friends again. The whole holiday was about PSL PSL PSL. Finally, I feel Im back to 4/8 alr. Now sitting with Jolene temporarily but I have a feeling we'll have to split up cos we too noisy! Hahaha. Oh and Khishal's in my class!

Sec 1 Orientation Finale was a blast. Screamed till my head hurt, then was stuck amongst a whole crowd of screaming PSLs and my head hurt more. But my heart felt good. Was nice to see PSL spirit again. Thinking about having to step down in 2 months kills me. I will definitely miss PSL because it gave me a lot of things. Basically 3/4 of my Secondary School life was about PSL. The stress and all, but nothing beats the fun and laughters we had as PSLs. Still have lots to do though, before stepping down.

Dropped A Maths. Altho havent got approval from HOD but have been going for Emaths lessons everyday. Still haven't finished holiday homework. Must chiong History and Chi by Monday.
All our teachers except Hist, Pure Lit and Chi have been changed ): I want Miss Diana and Miss Tan back!!!!

E Maths - Mr Choy
Phys - Mr Eng
Chem - Mrs Carol Chan
SS - Miss Soh
Eng - Mdm Sharifah

Super stressed up during Chem seriously. Couldnt stop concentrating cos the teacher is too strict. Sat super upright till my back hurt and head hurt out of stress. Sitting with Yewboon now in lab. The way she settled the lab arrangement was like noone dared to disobey her. I think only Stanley has the ability to make her laugh LOL. Saw her smile only ONCE this week.
Mr Eng is funny but creepy.
Miss Soh is funny but sarcastic.
Mdm Sharifah is good! But I'll see her for like 3 hours on Thursdays. Cos of Pure Lit and Eng.

Felt very tired the whole week. The moment I reach home I drop dead on the sofa, bathe, eat dinner and then die on my bed. Wake up at 2am to do homework and off to school I go. No time at all to use the comp. I guess this is Sec 4 life. Kinda sucks but it'll be over soon. The new teachers are good, so I hope I'll score better for Mid Years. If I successfully drop A Maths, I'll have 7 subjects. I hope I get 3 or 4 A1s by mid years. That's the only resolution I have for this year - To do well for O Levels. I need to find my balance.

Fuck off. It hurts.

I hate you

2010-01-02T10:17:00.000-08:00

You always do the things you tell me not to do. Always. Why do you always spoil the day ahead of me when you know all I was doing was anticipating it? Haven't you thought of the countless times Ive given in? Why cant you just give in to me this time around? Im tired of your sick antics. It wears me out entirely. I hate you for being who you are. You be nice to me and I believe you. But the next moment you turn around and forget all about what youve said to me. You become someone I dont know because I dont want to know. But you are forcing me to know you.

Cant you understand that I hate being irresponsible? Couldnt you see the importance? Cant you hear my pleas, that I dont wanna give me up for you? This is me. ME. This is about me. No. Wait. This isn't about me anymore. And neither has it ever been about you. It's about others. I thought you hated people being irresponsible, yet you are driving me to the corners. Why are you making me so hateful? Even if others dont hate me, I will hate myself enough.

Omg this is so hard not typing out the details. But seriously I am so disappointed and upset and pissed and I dont know what else to say. I was supposed to be happy. But thanks, you ruined it. Up to here. I'll stop. I can't go on or I'll just burst into tears again. Why do I have to live this asshole life?

Throw away your arrogant pride
Im not like a lighthouse only watching you like an idiot

Happy belated xmas!

2009-12-27T08:02:00.000-08:00

Yeah as the title says it all :)
Nothing much about my xmas lol just stayed home to watch more IRIS and stuff. Currently at EP18 since the previous day.... Didnt really feel like watching anymore. Wanted to watch more variety :)

Cant believe Charice came to Singapore Idol zomg!!!! When they said Charice I was telling my bro I knew a Charice thru Star King and it turned out to be really her! She sang perfectly, as usual :)

Vids of her at Star King: (Enjoy!)

Level outing

2009-12-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

Had level outing today. Fun!!!!
Met Sheana Henry for breakfast at Macs. Then Edwin Joal Hilmi Jasmin came to join us. Super funny found out something from Hilmi and I sorta agreed to blog something funny and insulting (LOL!). But maybe not today..... Cos now dont really have the mood.
After that went bowling at Ehub! After not bowling for so long, I sucked like hell!!!! Hahaha. Me and Monk/ Monneh (Jasmin's new nickname) was like same all the way but the last part she pangseh me LOL.
Our last game nicknames:
1) Nehneh
2) Sicaneh (LOL Cos Joal insisted on Sica, he Jessica crazy)
3) Donneh (Me :D)
4) Monneh
5) Chicneh

Damn fun :D Then siao liao, wanted to watch Avatar but both 3D and normal sold out. So in the end, decided to sneak in Perfect Getaway :D Bought tix for Bodyguards and Assassins (Which actually me and Henry also felt like watching) and we went to play arcade.
The movie was kinda boring? A bit regret ah, not going for B&A.
Took group photo and they went off to BBQ while me and Henry followed Darren. Talk talk talk laugh laugh laugh then I went home ):

I dont know ah. What got into me. The sudden rush again? Stupid. Walking home, suddenly felt like crying. Maybe it was the wind that was piercing my eyes. But ...... aiya. Who bothers? Lol. And at that moment, Without Words just had to play. Feels like shit you know. I hate this.

Bro's 21st

2009-12-16T08:55:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Bro !!!! I still owe you a present ha ha. It's cheesy but Im glad I have you as my brother :D
Dinner @ Some restaurant in Bedok yum yum.

Playing with Colour Accent!!!

Mom and I camwhored ALOT :D (Didnt post everything~)

Class chalet

2009-12-14T21:31:00.000-08:00

Hi hi I am back from Class Chalet!!!!!!!!
But felt super stressed and still is feeling very stressed all cos of that stupid Giraffe who just threw all the shit to me and left for Bangkok Ugh!!!

Anyways Class Chalet was fun cos we keep talking but not so fun cos there weren't activities much. First day met up with Fel Rach and Jomin first for Lit Project. We were so crazy!!!!! Hahahaha crazy director Jomin. And the "porn" dvd hahaha. Lame sia we all. When we reached chalet the 4 of us were so hyper :D

Went to EHub cos they wanted to catch a midnight movie so checked the movie timings. We wanted to sneak into Perfect Getaway by buying New Moon tickets (And they managed to!). But in the end, Samantha me and John watched Princess and the frog. Me and Sam continued with Storm Warriors! Total midnight movie :D Our movies ended 'round 2am? Ya then we walked back so dark and scary and so many men! Spent all my money (1 dollars 0 cents left) Me Sam Yongwei Hakim Danny were the only people who ton! Me and Yongwei had a nice conversation! :D

Breakfast was sponsored by Sam my $2.50 Mac meal. Lunch was cup noodles D: The horror of not having money.
In the end, all of them slept a little I think ytd afternoon while I was away :( So yay Im the sole survivor haha. Went to meet Jasmin Jhinkai Tiffany and Hilmi to do PSL stuff. I was so entertaining LOLLLL. They said I should go do Standup Comedy. Had Superdog FINALLY THANKS TO JASMIN I was dying without food D: And I have something to threaten Hilmi with now ^^

Went back Class Chalet saw Jolene sleeping and Faith's bored face. Went out with Faith to find the people but in the end couldn't. Played some lame bury-our-legs game at the beach LOL. Came back and realised they were all back.

BBQ started! Me Joanne Jomin and Faith went to buy stuff at NTUC. Walao the only satay that was there and that WE BOUGHT was not already prepared with the sticks and everything!!! Me and Faith had to thaw it then thread it through the sticks one by one. Thankfully they said it was nice :D Due to OUR HAND TASTE HAHAHA. BBQ was yummy. Had class photo and Bro fetched me and Danny home!

Learnt a lot of things:
1) Can spread fire with wax can.
2) Dont let the fire go into the wax can.
3) Dont fan too hard otherwise the sparks hit very pain.

Joke of the chalet:
WQ: Oh ya the Anything is the drink right
Joanne: OH YA ANYTHING AND DUNNO RIGHT!!!!!! (very confidently)
WQ and Felicia laughs hysterically :D

Oh and I didnt like Princess and the frog. Hahaha I dont like Disney movies cos they keep singing ........ Storm Warriors was pretty good though I hated the graphics and the sword clashing sound was too loud. But yeah the storyline was quite good.

Danny have fun in KL :D!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-11T06:08:00.000-08:00

"좋아해."

And I guess it isn't as easy as it seems.

Sometimes I just stand by the window and look at people, all walks of life, letting time pass me by. I myself don't know why I do that. Maybe it's to pass time. Maybe it's to reach out to the world. But everytime I stretch my arms out, everything seems too far away. It's not within my reach, but I try to reach further, oblivious to my constraints. It was then that I realised, the window grills were always there. But I refused to see it.

2009-12-07T09:10:00.000-08:00

As promised, I'll intro my new love to you.
*Drumrolls please*
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Jung Yonghwa

Jang Geun Suk

*spaz*
I finished the drama in 2 days. Lol, I cant believe how anyone can stand waiting for the episodes to come out one by one. I just kept on going.....

My favourite part:
"Go Mi Nam. Do you want me to show you some stars right now?"
"If I hit you with this, you'll see about 5 of them"
*Swings arm and kisses*
"Don't make the pig nose."
*Kiss again*

WALAO. I nearly died there. Lol, totally died. I was spazzing like crazy on my chair. Squirming madly LOL.

Oh oh another favourite part was the part Shin Woo brought Mi Nam around Myungdong without her even noticing he was behind her. But the part near the end was so sad cos they were just steps apart. But still so nice leh so sweet like secret date :D

But towards the end I totally died for Taekyung. Especially that occasional smile. I think my chair is gonna spoil cos I keep squirming on it. LOL. Seriously la just the punching scene alone I repeated that countless times. Still repeating it now. Hehehehehehehe.

Next drama maybe Hong Gil Dong or Tree of Heaven or sth :D
But...... shit. My holiday homework. Where is it?

2009-12-05T08:55:00.000-08:00

Today was supposed to be a very special day. Hahaha last night I stayed up to watch that time pass me by, wondering how different it would have been if nothing happened.

Woke up, ate instant noodles, continued compiling the photos for Mom, watched dramas... occupying myself just like what my new baobei told me to.

My beloved partner Yongwei also told me it was time to let go last night. I'm still trying, partner! Trying.... trying.

Im happy the day passed anyway :) Woke up and smsed baobei.

If youre wondering who is my new baobei

JARSMIN CHEN!

Seeeeeee I said I'd dedicate a post to you hehe. So sad she go kukup today :( Faster come back! Hahahaha. Anyway thanks babe for everything! :D Really feel like we bonded a lot esp recently. I think it all started from Rainbow Centre. Hahah then now you also lias with me for Charity Concert. Hehehe love you baobei! :D

Actually I really do have a new someone. I'll reveal tmr, with full name pictures and everything, next post :D Tee hee!

Why did it rain today when it is no longer significant? Maybe it still is ...... Gah

2009-12-04T03:20:00.000-08:00

Woah today rain the whole day. Reminded me of a lot of happy stuffs that now turned to pain. Was supersuper late for meeting because couldn't leave my house! Got thunder lah, scared tio struck by lightning. Hahaha. Jhin Kai damn funny. "Shuenler are you okay are you okay are you okay Shuenler!!!" Hahahah total joke. The song is stuck in my head!

So anyway was very attentive throughout meeting, just realised I have a lot of shit to do soon! Sian sian sian means next week must have meeting! Maybe purposely put on same day as CIP so can hang out with the Excos after meeting! Hehhhehehee.

Nowadays almost everyday see the excos, we became all very bonded! I drifted away from the people Im close to but Im now closer with people I wasn't close to in the beginning. Sometimes I ask myself what do I have to do to gain back that distance, but in the end there's no conclusion. Hope things become better soon.

Anyways after the meeting, those who had nothing to do - Bear, Monkey, Zebra (Shuenler) and moi went to eat ice-cream! @ Ice Cream Chefs.
Walao that guy piss my face lah. HAHA inside joke. He really pissed me off lor. So inflexible. What's so difficult about putting two scoops of icecream together without mixing them. Wth lah, bad service. Wont go back there again D:
Talktalktalk laughlaughlaugh then took bus home. Poor Henry took the bus alr then realised Darren going home so he had to cross the road and take the bus back home hahaha. Me Jas and Shuenler camwhored a little on the bus. Mrt home with Jas! :D

Group study (?) @ Henry's

2009-12-03T06:40:00.000-08:00

:D

So fun !! I really love the excos :)
Had to wait 40 minutes outside school for the CIP kids (+ a giraffe) to play hide-and-seek (WTH HAHA). Went to Siglap for lunch before going to Bear's house for study session.
Giraffe laosai in his pants!!! Hahaha.
Bear was sleeping .......
Ya so we started the day with Indian Poker HAHA some lame game Birdie taught us. But it's so retarded and funny at the same time! Then we played Donkey (Omg that's moi) and Bear showed us some "magic".
Ya so anyway everyone is so accustomed to calling me Donkey I guess I have to give up the Tortoise title sobz :(
So in the end we did manage to study a little! While goofing around like watching MVs, raping Birdie, playing Truth or Dare, Taptap with Mother Chicken's phone and being absolutely random. Hehe.

Yup when it was time to get going, Birdie did a super funny thing! The umbrella kiap-ing trick. LOL DAMN FUNNY LAH ESP ON GIRAFFE. HAHAHA. I laugh until die. We met up with Monkey and then I took a bus to Grandma's. Fun day overall! Sian, tomorrow still have student leaders' meeting .......

In case you don't understand what Im talking about
Donkey - Me
Giraffe - Darren
Birdie - Jhin Kai
Bear - Henry
Mother Chicken - Sheana
Monkey - Jasmin
Hippo - Hang Rong

Other excos either have not been named or I cannot remember their names.

2009-12-02T08:00:00.000-08:00

Today I wasn't in a very good mood but I hope tmr will be better :)

Somehow I hope that the people I hope will read this will read this. (Sounds confusing haha)

Did you guys think that your behaviour today was appropriate? It was your first meeting, I tried my best not to get angry. Throughout this entire year Ive been chairing the meetings, this was the first time I feel so hopeless and pissed. Chatting amongst yourselves, giving worthless opinions, not even listening to me. This meeting was an extremely important meeting, to set things straight for the next year and yet you guys did not even feel the importance of this. Projteens is at stake, PSL is at stake, the entire Sec 1 is at stake (regarding the lesson issue) and the entire community may be at stake (regarding the new event). This affects us, directly. And you seem so nonchalant about it. I did not reprimand you guys, in hopes you will notice that the situation now has changed. You are now PSLs, even though not invested, but this is your first official meeting. But you just carried on as if you were participants of an event, only having fun.

"This was the best line you said in 2 hours, it was so boring." Did you expect that a meeting would be about blowing balloons and playing with party poppers? Sorry, if that was your concept. I tried to add a little humour here and there, but you guys were just too absorbed in your private conversations. I really reached my limits when I heard your suggestions. Really. I merely brought myself back in time before exploding because I had to tell myself this was only the first meeting. I did not want to leave a bad impression of Projteens especially when this wasn't the entirely desirable committee to all of you. Let me tell you, Projteens are super bonded within and we had lots of fun times together. It's just that you don't see it. Harshful, but this is the fact, since you're already in, commit.

I really didn't want to spoil the mood about having comm lunch and everything, but all of you really got me boiling. You may think of it as a small issue, but it's the kind of uneasiness that Im feeling. I dont wanna step down leaving you guys as a playful and non-achieving committee. I want to make a change. It's okay to have fun, but when it's time to get serious, you have to. You may see me goofing around, but I absolutely hate it when you think Im joking when Im getting serious. You may not be seeing me around next year, but please, give the due respect to the person chairing the meeting.

I hope to see a change in the next meeting. Really. I was so disappointed but I'll not let it affect my perspective that you guys have the potential to excel in Projteens.

I am..... underwater!

2009-12-01T00:08:00.000-08:00

I have evolved from Donkey ....

to TORTOISE! Hahaha I cannnot make up my mind. Damn it.
Because I also like Dugong.....

Walao I realised all the animals I like look so blur..... But!
Did you know?
Dugongs are an endangered species, and they are the only strict herbivores underwater!! They only eat sea grass leh. So big yet so harmless.... Cute right? I wish I could hug them! Hehehe. If there was a Touch corner for Dugong, I sumpah I will touch!!! Unlike rays and fishes.... Hahaha.

Yesterday Scholar's induction was fun !!! I was so amazed by Underwater World because Ive not been there in years! Everything is so different that I kept going "woah woah woah". But the things there damn ex lor. :(
Scholars are super friendly too! A lot of them like cello :) And I kept scandaling them together haha like the Doraemon guy. Haha so funny!
Pictures soon once I kope them from Darren and Jasmin and whoever has camera :D

Photo spam

2009-11-29T08:41:00.000-08:00

Finally, photo spam!!! From EOY Camp to Grad Nite to recent outings!

EOY Camp 2009

PSL Grad Nite - Masquerade 2009

Popping champagne.... (Yah right you believe it's champagne?)

Projteen EXCOs :)

Karaoke @ Orchard with Mom and her friends

I was kinda bored in the Karaoke room lah..... But I still dont know why I did that. Lol looks like chopsticks pinching my face? Lol.

Happy Santa....

Yay see my nails so nice nice nice white nails~

Coffee Club with Tok Kong

Wah finally done. Shiok.

I wonder if it is just me but I cant really seem to smile like I did before while taking pictures. Lol weird.

Ive changed ........

2009-11-25T05:22:00.000-08:00

Hiding from the rain and snow

Trying to forget but I wont let go

Looking at a crowded street

Listening to my own heartbeat

So many people

All around the world

I will survive

2009-11-21T07:23:00.000-08:00

Omg Im finally online after 107026136147513451 days.
PSL Camp was fun, but not as fun as the previous years. The only thing I remember most is the lack of sleep, and us rushing up to the Den whenever we had time to sleep.
First night I totally didn't sleep at all because I thought Jas stole my sleeping bag!!! In the end, it was stuck at the corner. Lol. On the second night we tried to catch the meteor shower but we stayed up till 4am and there was nothing. I think we got cheated. Slept well though :)
Third night, I was BBQ-ing the entire night. Fun, but James and Samuel kept asking why I didnt give my BBQ position up to my juniors. Haha, I guess I needed to keep myself preoccupied. I ended up sleeping in the open....
Overall it was fun and I think I bonded quite a lot with the excos :)

To the new PT peeps: I knw most of you didn't choose Projteens as first choice, but Im sure you will grow to love it a lot. Many people dont see what we do, just because we are low-profile. But next year it is all gonna be different. Projteens is a rare committee, and we are really bonded within!!!

Grad Night last night was fun! Though I ended up with a headache from jumping around and "ballroom dancing". I popped "champagne" too! Hahaha fun fun fun. It was fun taking pictures, fun dancing 2PM with Daniel, fun playing the table games etc. Good job Tok Kong :D

Today went out with Mom and her friends. It was fun! We went to Vivo to walk walk and catch up.

Superdog > G2000 > Mondo > Daiso > Food Republic > Best > Nichii > Toast Box > Home sweet home!

Bought 2 pairs of socks, nail polish, a blouse, a pair of brown gladiator sandals. Let me tell you the story of the sandals.
LOL I was walking walking then my shoe's back part came off. Like, it was totally flapping. So I just had to chiong into a shoe shop and buy the most comfortable shoe that matches with my dress.
Thus explains the gladiator sandals.
I never expected myself to buy gladiator sandals because I didn't like the straps and the colour. But this brown... I like~ And it's not very exaggerated, like not many straps lah. So I bought it otherwise cannot continue walking liao haha.
Nichii is a nice shop! I like this shop!

I typed a whole chunk of words but ended up deleting everything.

Can you feel my heartbeat?

2009-11-13T06:46:00.000-08:00

Im suffering from haemorrage(sp?) alr.
Nosebleed.. Nosebleed.... Tissuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuue............

Anyway today at Tok Kong's house was fun!!! We did invitations for Grad Night HA HA So crappy lor the bloopers so funny lol we should have done this earlier. Go PSL Facebook to view the video :D
I think I momentarily forgot all my stress :D

Yeah baby, Im gonna go listen to my heartbeat now. HAHA. This song lah. Not my heartbeat.

Listen to my heart beat

2009-11-11T06:53:00.000-08:00

I think the MV is nice. Theyve matured towards a more emotional side, and I couldn't understand why Chansung's rap sounded so weird. But when the subbed version came out, I think it adds on to the effect. When Taec started rapping, I found a certain similarity towards Eunhyuk! And I think Wooyoung is getting hotter!!! Junho too.
This song has a rather unusual beat to it, and I think it will take time getting used to. Whilst doing so, Im so in love with the MV and its 'emo' theme .... Also thinking how different would this have been with Jay. Maybe Jay would be the one doing the adlibs... Jay may have fringe so that he can swing around during the chorus... Jay doing the heartbeat movement. But anyways, they look really hot in the suits :) Miss you Jay, and "my heart keeps believing you might come back".

Anyways today in the Den was fun fun fun :) I was so extra-ded but ohwell still fun. After that went to the tidbits place and ate my so-called dinner :)
I am on a diet! Officially. Please keep reminding me of that. No more fastfood until Grad Night or else my flabby arms would look like shiet in the dress.

GOOFY FACE

2009-11-10T01:38:00.000-08:00

Yay yay yay it's over !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like YAY O LEVEL CHI IS OVER !!!!
But anyway I think I'll be retaking it. Har har. I was so happy with Paper 1 esp my gong han but oh well .... Paper 2 was ok but only some ques dont really knw how to explain. Thus I think I will get a B and I will retake. Gosh, how I hoped to clear it once and for all -_-

After the paper went to eat with Rachel Danny Fel and Jomin @ Subway. (Dont worry Danny ate cookies only) It was so so funny !!!!!!! But only Rachel understood what I meant. I was so afraid that they found out I was laughing at them, later they get their gang to beat me up :O
Afterwhich Rachel Fel and I went to Jomin's house to do our drama! Jomin's house so nice :D And I feel kinda proud of what we accomplished today altho we have sooooo much more to do :O Gosh.

I feel so stressed up recently! I dont even knw how to blog out my stress. And when I type it out, it doesnt seem alot, but I dont know why I just feel stressed.

~~O Level Chi~~
PSL Camp
New event
Charity Concert
Grad Night
Homework
Miscellaneous

I think the miscellaneous part is the most stressful of all.
Thank god I have B2ST :D !!!!

Left to right: Doojoon, Dongwoon, Yoseob, Kikwang, Hyunseung, Junhyung

They are like my newest obession. Yoseob = my total fave, 7th husband :D Doojoon-Yoseob couple is super super cute! I like Junhyung too cos he's cool and I love his talent !!! Esp rap. And Im totally addicted to Bad Girl~

And if Jay really comes back during the Comeback, I'll go "WTF ARE THEY CHEATING MY FEELINGS!?" and love him twice as much :P

My bro: "Walao, you everyday 2AM 2PM, no wonder morning wake up at 2PM, at night sleep at 2AM"

Goofy face is an inside joke amongst the assholes. *Shows goofy face*

Class Outing @ Escape Halloween

2009-11-01T00:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's class outing @ Escape was fun fun fun!!!!! Altho it rained (which spoiled my mood a lil) but 3/8 still made it fun!
Wow, was so surprised at the number of people who turned up! :D I think more than 15. Hehe... But Escape was a lil disappointing. Halloween wasn't as scary as I hoped it'd be. Gosh, we should have gone to Sentosa or Night Safari instead !!! But at least Escape was cheaper $.$
The Haunted House was scarier last time, in the day. Even with the special Halloween stuff, just wasn't as scary. Hahaha maybe cos I was walking in front with the guys. But halfway, the girls behind me disappeared!!! I was so scared of getting attacked from behind but nothing happened.

I think Viking is more scary than Halloween. Hahaha I was screaming my guts out luh, I think too long never sit alr. All my height-phobia went back to the max. Hakim was like patting my back when we were super high up saying "You okay not!!" Haha. Khantzaw was super funny shouting too.

The guys said Jolene was scarier than the Halloween ghosts in Haunted House. Poor Yongwei HAHAHA. Kena scratched and pulled and pulled and pushed. But I think this outing was successful because I talked more to people who I never talked with much e.g, Hongbin! Haha. But the stupid rain really spoiled my mood... Why did it have to rain! My shoes are still drenched until now :(

Near the ending part, Faith Jomin and I started looking for ghosts to take photos with. But I think they all got off from work alr. Walao! Haha couldn't find my pajamas guy. Couldn't stop making fun of him at the entrance. HAHAHA. He was like trying to be scary, holding the bars and dragging himself along, then one of the bars were unstable then he stood up straight. So I was like "I know you want to laugh right!!" then he sorta smiled then went back to his scary face.

One of the ghosts tried to scare me by standing behind me but Ivan said "Behind you!" then I turned slowly and he came so close to me I was more afraid of him kissing me than him scaring me hahaha. I think only one of the ghosts was truly quite scary. The lady that was walking around and scared Stanley, scared me too! Hahaha so scary. Omg this post is so wordy because I didn't take any photos with my phone. Ugh!

But anyways it was fun fun fun! So after walking Jolene home, took bus home with Danny and Shi Hui. Nice Danny walked me home altho it was 11plus! Thank you twinneh!!! :D
And I think my class people are so nice cos this is the first time Ive gone on a group outing and people ask me to sms them when I reach home. Hehe! Yay 3/8 rockzzzzzzzz :D LOVE YOU ALL!
We must go on an outing soon soon soon :D

[Hope to kope pictures from Crystal soon :P]

All that it takes is some time but Im shattered

2009-10-30T05:35:00.000-07:00

In a way, I need a change
From this burnout scene
Another time, another town
Another everything
But it's always back to you

Stumble out, in the night
From the pouring rain
Made the block, sat and thought
There's more I need
It's always back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you
Yeah, yeah, yeah
How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around

I had no idea that the night
Would take so damn long
Took it out, on the street
While the rain still falls
Push me back to you

Give it up, give it up, baby
Give it up, give it up, now
Now
How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
All that I feel is the realness I'm faking
Taking my time but it's time that I'm wasting
Always turn the car around

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around

Don't wanna turn that car around
I gotta turn this thing around

Some songs just hit the right note sometimes.
Lol I knw the picture at the top is so dorky but yeah ... I was filmed during LC doing lipsync. Hahaha. GOt video somemore.
Gosh, tmr's gonna be a busybee day.
Exco meeting in the morning, class outing to Escape for Halloween Night : )
I cant wait for the latter !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :B

Once 3/8, always 3/8. We stay together baby! :D And dont be sad, because the doors to our classroom is always open for you.

The sick bay

2009-10-28T04:35:00.000-07:00

Today I nearly died in school.

Bad cramps, cold sweat, limbs feeling cold, nausea, numbness and weakness in the limbs ..
Thank god all of you were there. Really. Love you guys :)
It was the first time in my school history that I used the school's sick bay. Usually I went there to accompany people. This time it was me. It was really comforting to know you have friends next to you and I think I got better quite fast? :D But sorry to make you guys wait altho it's alr after school!

Today was a really slack day. Phy SPA briefing, followed by Survey in the comp lab, then Principal talk and finally 2 hours of Lit.
I spammed feedback on a particular teacher but I hope I will not get bashed up on my way home or sth. The parts where we were in the hall, was really feeling damn drowsy probably cos Ive been watching episodes after episodes of drama and doing up documents every single day. Then during Lit, everything started.
Lit was supposed to be interesting but it was kinda boring today cos we were covering the court trial alr done in Sec2. And Off Centre, I really couldn't concentrate cos I started to feel worse alr.

Anyw Im off to watch dramas again.. Big thank-you to Rachel (my lit partner for today and for accompanying me in the toilet altho I knw you were kinda freaked out), Jolene (for suggesting to carry me but I wouldnt wanna break your back and for being there all the way), Samantha (for being there too :D), Serene (for your Chinese medicinal help HAHA).

"Stick out your tongue" Lol inside joke :P

Off to be a Couch Potato

2009-10-25T20:18:00.000-07:00

GOOD LUCK FOR O'S EVERYONE!

Anyw Im getting ready to leave my house in approx 2 minutes to go be a couch potato with Jolene and Darren (?)!!!!!!!! But first, I want to eat Superdog! :D I really hope Superdog opens a branch in Tampines. Hehehe.
Anyway, on Tuesday, Leadership Competition was a success! I guess. Hahah altho MANY things in my opinion went wrong, but I think it was still okay :) Good job PT! Love you guys~ Will never forget the fun times we had during "meetings"!
On Thursday, we went for Post-exam CIP. Yay for Rainbow Centre. Despite it being only a 10minutes visit, I really thought it was meaningful. Really. The little boy was so cute! Sadly, I checked online for volunteer services, but it's only available on schooldays. Which means not during holidays or weekends. Sigh.

Ok GOSH I spent 2 minutes typing all that already I really need to go! COUCH POTATOES :D (Reminds me of WildBunny..... My jay x3)

Oh oh and I am so fed up with mysoju because I was watching My Fair Lady till Ep6 and then all the parts became just a blank screen. We Got Married also happened the same thing!!!!!
And thus I am now watching Lovers in Paris which is nice nice nice!
How to choose between Kijoo and Soohyuk!?
And I realised, rich guys can really afford the romance.
Gosh I really want to continue with Ep8 but I am longing for Superdog :P Ok bye!!!!! (Late alr)

GOOD LUCK FOR O'S ONCE AGAIN!

Octoberrrrrrrrrr

2009-10-18T05:28:00.000-07:00

Is October the month of the boybands? What keeps me wondering is the Beastly fever. After 2pm, boybands are adopting the beastly/ manly group image whilst girlgroups are following after 2NE1's style.
Anyway the two seedling boybands I'll be posting about today is B2ST (Renamed BEAST) and MBLAQ. A lot of people are like comparing the two groups and what pisses me off is in both groups....... There's one person who'll show the abs. Lol, reminds me of Jay.... Ugh!

MBLAQ - Oh Yeah

BEAST - Bad Girl

More about BEAST first, I liked Doo Joon pretty much during Hot Blood. And Hyunseung changed companies!!!! Well at least he's debuted now :D I used to think he was really cute during BB Documentary.
For MBLAQ, their un-abbreviated name sounds weird - Music Boys Living in Absolute Quality. LOL!? But I kinda like Joon, cos his smile is so much like Jay but the ab-showing...erm.... And Mir looks like Hongki!!!!

Ok bye Im gonna continue watching WGM and maybe start on High Kick today.

Banana Day

2009-10-17T07:08:00.000-07:00

Today I went to Orchard with my twin!!!!!!!! Actually main purpose was to see the Flash Mob :D
And it was damn kewlz I tell you. Gosh! I didn't expect Singaporeans to be so spontaneous, even getting the Jetstar person or sth to say "It's 2pm!!!!!"

I was too excited to take the photo properly but I just wanted to show some evidence I was there! If you squint a little, you'll see some signboards and stuff. But when the music came on, I totally went bonkers and didn't take a video even though it wouldn't capture anything since there was such a croud gathered! Unlike other countries. LOL. I think the people thought it was some event with the MC and everything. o_o

Lol altho we sucked compared to the other countries, the audio support and the feeling was so there! I felt so much like a true-blue Hottest just by standing there and watching. The best part was, I didn't expect the dance! And I started doing the hand actions while standing at the spot. :D But they so should have done the full song instead of small parts from 3 songs.... And probably play Why Aren't You Coming Back :D
Jayyyyyyy (L)

Anyways, got freaken lost in Orchard today! Like superduper lost. EVERYWHERE WE WANTED TO GO WE WERE LOST. HAHA!

Chiong to Tampines Mall get his present > ION Burger King > In search of flash mob > Went crazy > In search of Cineleisure > Asked for directions everywhere > Queue too long then missed the Meatball show > Watched an NC16 movie instead LOLOLOL (Not disclosing) > Walk back to ION > In search of Uniqlo > In search of MRT > Chiong to POMO to meet Mom for yummy dinner > Home Sweet Home!

Are you seeing double? LOLLLLLLL

I am posting this to torment him with his unglamness.

Freedomfoodfun

2009-10-15T03:07:00.000-07:00

I SCREAM FREEDOM AND FOOD AND

FUN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here I come Unstoppable High Kick, We Got Married, East of Eden (maybe) and otherssssssssssss!!!!!

Oh well, still have stuff to do. 6 hours meeting tmr!!!!! Excited but also wondering how I'll survive.... But it's gonna be fun fun fun! My dear projteens made me laugh till cry thrice today! :DDDD

PS: I LOVE HENRY'S PHONE~ :P
"Wa si lin lao bei-ahahahhahahaa" - Inside joke :D

Oneway to Freedom

2009-10-14T00:09:00.000-07:00

Photo credits: Mihai Gogean

I guess Ive already given up, because theres no more hope left to hold on to. But on a really bright note, LAST PAPER TMR !!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have no idea how excited I am because I still have a huge workload waiting for me immediately after the exams. (Irony)

Anyway, as Physics motivation and fan service, I shall be generous and share with all of you readers, the beauty of my sweetie's abs.

Hehehehe my jay~ *nosebleeds*
It doesn't hurt to fangirl a little overboard sometimes......... right? Tee hee

Jinwoon fangirls(/boys) too :P Everyone loves Jay's chocolates! Jinwoonie (L)

Nyahahahaha now I think Ive gained my mood back, woohoo!!!!

Datta. Dayadhvam. Damyata.

2009-10-12T01:34:00.000-07:00

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
And in the end
It doesn't even matter

All the subjects that I had aced in the recent CA are total disasters this time round. I was very confident in my Mole Concept, and apparently they wanted to bring me down. If I can scrape through with a B I'll really be happy. Combined Humantities - SS was still okay, but History was unexpectedly difficult compared to last year's paper. Ugh! Even Lit, my most confident subject turned out to be one of my most disappointing.
I guess I won't let this affect me too much, because I still have 3 subjects to go. GO GO GO~
On a lighter note,

EL P1
EL P2
Social Studies
HCL P1
Elective History
HCL P2
Chemistry
Lit P1
Lit P2
E Maths P2
E Maths P1
A Maths
Physics

9 down, 4 to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JIAYOU JIAYOU ADD OIL ADD OIL PEOPLE!

"Datta. Dayadhvam. Damyata.
Give. Sympathize. Control.
To live is to give - No strings attached. Sympathize - Not with yourself but with others... others who are blind. And in this country, there are many. Control. We must accept what life gives us, but we must take control of its course."

2009-10-09T07:11:00.000-07:00

Today I nearly fainted when I saw the History paper. Lol... All my efforts T_T
Chi paper was a....... "WHAT!?" Lol. The compre was talking about doors opening and closing.
Mr Sara addressed the schl on the stalker this morning, and people thought I was the one who complained. I wasn't!
Today I had a good bonding with my brother - From screaming karaoke while lying down to setting up karaoke to watching variety vids to eating Pastamania delivery (For the first time). But I got scolded by my mom. Seriously I still dont understand what was there to be angry about. Yes Im sorry and everything but shouldnt you at least appreciate it? Lol. I think many parents would tear up if their kids save them some nice yummy food when they didnt request it. We did it out of our own free will. Hey!? Lol. But anyway she is still angry now so I should stop.

Ive been listening to sad songs lately.

1:59PM

2009-10-04T03:14:00.000-07:00

I cant get myself to do maths. I keep doing the same things again and again.

Park Jaebeom, why aren't you coming back, why aren't you coming back
Im still waiting like a fool
I still do not support the 1:59PM movement, although the dancemob-thing looks really really cool.

If we're gonna do this in Singapore, I might really go. Really.

Im trying my very best to transform into my nerdy self @.@
Regretfully, I really finished Wild Bunny. Zzz.
(Hope Jay comes back so I can catch the last epi!)

Ba.na.na.

2009-09-29T07:28:00.000-07:00

I saw the pervert for the fourth time within these 2 weeks. Why do I keep seeing things I dont wanna see, yet the things I desire most are never by my side? Lol, Im slowly subjecting it all to fate. Even I myself cant believe this nonsensical coincidence.

Thank god Serene was with me today, I'd probably have gone crazy if I was alone. According to Danny, he alighted from the previous Bus 10 (Because he had seen him on that bus) and went to board another Bus 10 (which concidentally was my bus). So fated right?

So in the end, I hired my bodyguard as always. The banana twins drank themselves today. Hahah, was wondering why so many people drink banana bubble tea ._. I wanted to try banana ice-blended, then he drank oreo banana and some lady after us ordered mocha banana haha. But anyway I felt like I was drinking blended gum..... o_o

Today I was very depressed.

Lucky I still have my beasts and fishie (whom I have just reunited with after so many months), but Ive just finished Idol Army (Excluding Ep10 and 16). Wild Bunny shall commence after the exams.

E.X.A.M.S. Why am I not feeling the damned pressure yet!?

BIAN TAI!!!!

2009-09-22T03:01:00.000-07:00

Today I ate very yummy yummy goodies. Thank you Danny! :D It's really damn yummy lah I like the round round white colour one!
Last night I did 50 sit-ups to reduce the guilt. Youre supposed to applaud me here!!!!!!

However, today, I was badly scarred again. I met up with THE pervert AGAIN, for the fourth time. He usually resides in Bus 10, but today I even saw him in the MRT. The worse experience of my life. His eyes seriously haunt me. If you really wanna know what happened during the damned horror, please approach me personally. The blog is not to be scarred :(
Sigh, why do I have such bad luck luh. Fourth time okay. This time alone some more. I was badly in need of some protection and resorted to calling my mom, but in the end I had to depend on myself since she was in Paya Lebar. Ugh! Independence.... Independence.

WARNING: Girls (And guys, cos we are not certain of his sexuality whether or not he is bi), please beware of the weird guy with brown eye circles, and never blinks. He stares at people, in awkward positions, and would make gradual advances towards the victim. Please beware!!!

Nausea

2009-09-21T09:03:00.000-07:00

Although I didn't manage to consume the nasi lemak I desired (refer to previous post),

Doraemon mooncake + Half-a-crab mooncake + Homemade herbal tea + Spicy seafood cup noodles + Can of chilled latte + One whole can of tuna straight from the can + Mee sua + Winter melon tea = Nausea + Pregnant-like tummy

Readers (Even if there aren't any), please remember to treat your tummies as proper beings. I am extremely remorseful for what I have done today. I hereby undertake to take better care of you my dearest tummy on the condition that you do not bloat up so much. I think even doing 50 sit-ups now will not reverse this situation. Im sorry Belly. (LOL I HAVE NO IDEA WHY BUT I THINK BELLY SOUNDS SO CUTE!)

Today I am on extreme mode, after watching 5 full episodes of variety shows. Siao liao ah!

Nasi lemak

2009-09-20T21:40:00.000-07:00

Aiyo, I can't believe such people actually existed so close to us all. It's like, calling others 5 year-old mentalities when youre 3 years old. It's also like, telling others to get branded coconut milk for their nasi lemak rice, when your nasi lemak rice is rotten. Hahaha all this nasi lemak talk is making me crave for some!!!!!!!!!! (Hungry lah)

On a lighter note........... I feel so guilty for not doing any work this holiday. I think Im gonna die this EOY. Lol. Totally no mood! And it's all because of-

*Squirms and dies*
Patiently awaiting your return, Jay! And fans, boycotting is seriously not gonna help lah. He'll be back when the time is right. :) Jay hurry come back!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heartbreaker

2009-09-12T08:38:00.001-07:00

What more do I have to say?
Speechless hot. Though a tad too emo for my liking.
My current addiction.

Broken - Lifehouse

2009-09-12T05:31:00.000-07:00

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

Thank you Yongwei for introducing this song to me. :)

And I really hope you guys wouldn't discuss such stuff behind my back because I dont need your sympathy and neither do I need your pity. Especially when it's coming from you. I don't need you people to try to feel what Im feeling or intepret how I should be feeling, because I'm sure you happy ass people wouldn't want to try this shit. So please, I don't need to seem pathetic.

Stairway to Heaven

2009-09-11T07:03:00.000-07:00

Ok Im so lazy to arrange them!!!!!! HAHA I uploaded in order but blogger messed them up. There are some more but there's too many!!!!

Today was a fun fun fun day!
The best thing we did was camwhoring - Seriously! :D
Ive never taken so many photos in my life before. Like totally we took 70 over photos!!! Crazy huh!?

ION Orchard > Trying to find Swensens > Got lost > Found Swensens after asking ION's Customer Service (TYVM) > Ice-Cream Buffet (Review up soon!) > Walked around finding a place to camwhore > Wisma > ION (AGAIN-.-) > Art Gallery (SUPER COOL LAH THE ART WORKS I LOVE IT But $$$) > Outside Wisma to camwhore > Stairway to MRT (/Heaven) :D > Plaza Sing > Daiso > Home sweet home!

Feet tired but it was worth it! So fun camwhoring lah we like siao zha bors but lucky no one used that staircase other than an auntie asking for directions :P First time wearing dress out too :) Usually only wear dresses on special occasions ha ha. I am so happy today - Altho my emo shots look good HEHE

The only thing left on my mind - HOME WORK ZOMG ZZZZ But in the meantime, let me soak in my happiness first hehe too many nice pictures dont know which to use as profile pic z z z z z z z z :D

2009-09-09T23:52:00.001-07:00

Im just gonna post pictures in random order.
This blog is dead dead dead.

Yay done :D
Ytd was a happy day cos I went walking around the mall with my mom and managed to get myself another dress. Im quite a dress-anatic these days! Hehe... Wanna become more feminine ma.
Ive decided not to post anymore emo posts here cos it's glaring to the eyes. :)
Today was fun during Chem! We did.... tytration. (Is that how you spell it?) Was quite pissed cos I couldn't get the grey colour! Ugh. But anyways still fun.
Im so dead cos I have homework not done and I havent started revising! I should start immersing myself in my books but.... Just cant seem to get to it.
Anyway JOLENE! I AM SO EXCITED FOR TMR. EGGCITED EGGCITED! :D
I am very confident of my pressie so please anticipate! HAHA.
Hmmm.... Should I wear heels or not? Hmm...

PSL Selections

2009-08-22T21:39:00.000-07:00

Had PSL selections today.
Sat down and interviewed the whole day.... Asked practically the same whole load of questions to every one. Haha! The people were really cute though - Had a wide range of personalities. Of course there were pretty outstanding ones.
There was one guy who beatbox-ed for me when I asked him to show a talent. Woo hoo! Damn entertaining :D
Anyways, hope you guys had fun and all the best for entering PSL :)
Cant wait for this EOY camp! Though it will be pretty empty without the seniors...... (Altho Im not really close to them too lah)
Sigh.
How will I survive next year without seniors?
Just talking about CO, without Zozo, I alr lost the reason for going. Even at the risk of my attendance. There just doesn't seem to be any more motivation.... And no more laughter. As much as my juniors are really crazy too, it's a kind of lost link. At least now, there are times she pops by and I get all crazy about it. Next year.... It's not gonna happen alr. Sigh.

I really wish I could stop thinking about disheartening stuffs. But they just won't leave me.

A little shout-out to graduating students - Good luck for prelims :)

PS, I miss you ):

Lost in love

Sometimes;

2009-08-19T07:57:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I wish I could say everything I feel.
Sometimes I know I must not.
Sometimes I know Im wrong.
Sometimes I wish I could be understood.
Sometimes I wish I could understand myself, and what I really want.
Sometimes I wish I could understand people better.
Sometimes I wish people would quit beating about the bush and just tell me the straight truth.
Sometimes I wish I hadn't done things Ive done.
Sometimes I wish I did many things that Ive lost the chance to.
Sometimes I want to be a better person.
Sometimes I just want to be who I really am.
Sometimes I wish I wouldnt live my life for others; That I should live it for myself.
Sometimes I hope life has no regrets.
Sometimes I wonder why I always apologise.
Sometimes I wonder if Im ruining things by not asking for much.
Sometimes I wonder if Im right.
Sometimes I wish I werent.

And sometimes things just dont go the way I wish for them to be, yet I feel so helpless being unable to do anything about it, and at the same time knowing that it is the result of my past naiveity and incompetence. Even now, I do not know what is the meaning of my presence. "What the future holds for me is uncertain"? No, I do not even look to the future. I just silently hope I can live my life quietly, one step at a time...... But even so, there are always obstacles.
Face it, I say, don't run away. Now I realise, sometimes it's just better not to know anything and abstain from all possible sources of pain and sorrow. Ignorance is bliss.

2009-08-17T05:58:00.001-07:00

Now Im so glad Blogger and Facebook are screwing up so I can go read my book and do my homework without feeling guilty though I'll probably not do/ do just a little of the latter. Yay.

Hooked

2009-08-17T05:32:00.000-07:00

Been really hooked onto Facebook recently, so many applications. Sometimes I can waste 2 hours just watching customers walk in and out of my restaurant, wth? I seriously need to get rid of this addiction, but how? Without even knowing why Im addicted to this lifeless thing....... Hmm I guess thats my life. Lol.
Im starting to read again! Im currently reading Jodi Picoult's Change of Heart. After this Im gonna move on to a book Jomin introduced..... By James Pattison, Cracks of...... something. I forgot the title again. After that it's gonna be Angels and Demons. Yay! I wanna become a nerd. *Insert goofy nerd face*

Today, I was very sad and disappointed but outside I had to act like I was happy again. Acts, lies, drama, monotonous, fake smiles, craziness... Are these the only things I can do with my life? I really wanna become more useful than just pondering and wallowing in my incapabilities. Thanks Danny for walking with me home :) And eating icecream, and magnetic books ha ha! Inside joke. :P
I wanna watch videos, but I wanna read my book. I wanna do my homework (?!) but...... I wanna play Facebook. OMG IT FREAKING RHYMED! ._.
Due to my undesirable mood change, I suddenly feel like pon-ing cca tmr because I dont want to try out for student conductor anymore. Sheesh, so much for that talk about Hip-hop Song of Cicada. Can I back out now? I think I'll make it a funeral song instead o.o

Unknowingly I become envious of others' seemingly happy lives-

Just the beginning

2009-08-12T06:31:00.000-07:00

The talk with Mr Oh was fruitful. In that short (Ok not short) 45 - 50 minutes, Ive learned many things, and realised many aspects of my life in particular that Ive never looked into before.
I realised how dissatisfying my life is. It's sad, really.
So many questions left unanswered, yet I did not realise the existence of these little queries that is seemingly stopping me from being the best I can be.
I wonder to myself, are my decisions right? Maybe I should start being selfish.... I dont know. I feel like, Im not fighting for myself enough.
Something that was brought up today, dragged me to think. Think about how souless my life has been, how incomplete.... I tried telling myself what I believed in all along was right, but I was just flatly trying to make myself feel better.
Ive been searching all my 15 years of life, yes I do know its importance yet somehow there's this barrier in my mind, in my heart, in me that is stopping me. Is this what I really want? Thats the question Ive been asking myself all along. But Ive never been able to confidently answer myself.
Is this even a trust issue? I dont know.
I realised this is not a good option for posting all these, so I'll continue my thoughts elsewhere. Life's more than just a Shakespeare play of romance and nature. And maybe this is just the beginning of it all.

Anyways, Hideout 2 with the girls was fun fun fun! :D Too long since we've gathered altogether for lunch after school. Still, really apologise for taking so long! Sorrrrryyyyyy. Daily dose of entertainment~ Heh heh.

If I were to shatter

2009-08-08T07:26:00.000-07:00

Ignore whatever's in the video, enjoy the song. Lyrics below. This is the song that's in my head, replaying and replaying.

In a way, I need a change
From this burnout scene
Another time, another town
Another everything
But it's always back to you

Stumble out, in the night
From the pouring rain
Made the block, sat and thought
There's more I need
It's always back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you
Yeah, yeah, yeah

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around

I had no idea that the night
Would take so damn long
Took it out, on the street
While the rain still falls
Push me back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you
Yeah, yeah, yeah

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around

Give it up, give it up, baby
Give it up, give it up, now
Now

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
All that I feel is the realness I'm faking
Taking my time but it's time that I'm wasting
Always turn the car around

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around

Don't wanna turn that car around
I gotta turn this thing around

2009-08-03T08:21:00.000-07:00

We talked about it tonight.
The harshness of reality that has to happen, that would happen in time to come.
I wonder if anything has changed.
Im so glad, Ive finally been able to bring this up to you.
Thank you for giving me this chance.
Has anything between us changed? I dont know.
But for now, I love you and good night. :)

It's between us, but not so soon, ok? I promise :)

Mass Fund-raising

2009-08-03T02:47:00.000-07:00

Tired, but satisfied.
Mass Fund Raising was a success :)
Kallang booth was full of nonsense! Haha.
Team A versus Team B lunch-break-fund-raising!
Who gets less funds must treat the other team Sweet Talk.
OF COURSE WE WON :D
Team A rocks!!! Hahaha.

We had a secret strategy.... Some of us (Namely me, Miss Wan, Darren and Tiffany) went to Paya Lebar area to raise funds cos I remember how crowded it'd be everytime I went to Grandma's place.
The rest of us went house-to-house (Netto, Jun How and Badrul is it? Not sure)
Damn successful! Miss Wan and I - Best partners :D
Team A raised $200 over dollars! In about an hour :D Damn pro right?
I think we should have participated, probably could have won some Milo hampers :)
DARREN SO DEFINITELY OWES ME A TREAT COS I AM THE MOST VERSATILE WORKER OK! I did registration, registration and cashier at the same time, money compiler, money sorter, money packing, money labelling.... Every single job! HAHA, damn a lot of experience now.

Anyway it was very fun but very very tiring.
Went back to school to continue money compilation! Sit there and bundle bundle bundle. Label label label.
Saw a frog in school :D (And it didn't change its position for about 1 hour)
Didn't have lunch and dinner, but it was all worth it.
Reached home feeling sick at 9 plus.
Good job PSLs! Let's make the Finale a success :)

Went to Polyclinic this morning. Got sent to the Fever Clinic! And had to wear a mask so troublesome and difficult to breathe. Hahaha. Oh well, got lots of medicine to take, bodyaches all over, homework not done, fatigue still possessing my body, many thoughts to be handled. I missed Add Maths consultation today, how am I gonna pass my common test????? I also missed Lit test. And Chinese spelling.
Wl. So many things..... So little time......
Not mentioning my 2 upcoming events.

Keep on movin' WQ~

MILO models/ Shifting

2009-07-31T22:09:00.000-07:00

Hihi, Jolene and I are advertising for Milo :D
Yum!
Nono we didn't draw that! ._.
Omg I look so milo-evil!
It was so funny challenging each other in the drink-milo-contest!

Went to help Samantha unpack her stuff in her new house ytd! Super fun discovering all sorts of nonsense she has :D Fun fun fun sorting out all the different stuffs and borrowed a book from her :) Offie was super duper cute la, he was exploring the place crazily and the masking tape from the boxes got stuck to his fur and he didn't know it! Haha, he was super hyper, I guess he likes the new home :)
I love Sam's red wall! Hahaha, and the white shelves. Gives off a zen-ish, modern-ish feel :P Heh!
After unpacking some stuff..

The dining room HAHA
Before unpacking..
She has her piano in her room now :)

Oh yeah, Jolene and I got through to the final round of the Pyramid game. OMG, that means we're gonna be doing it during Assembly.... Omg....... Lol.....

It never ends

2009-07-28T05:31:00.000-07:00

So tired of running even a race, yet I have to run a medley
I tell myself to keep holding on
To keep pushing myself to my limits
To keep running and never to turn back to see how far Ive gone
Time and again I realise Im not as strong as I presumed myself to be
My breathings and sighs get heavier as I struggle with my inner self
Wanting to just stop moving and take a little breather
This life's my fight, my race, mine to begin with
No one but me has to fight in this battle, run in this race
But why am I running for others?
Why should I fight for them;
The others who remain now, and always, the constant reminder that I
Am weak but have to be strong

"You are not alone"
I never am
But who will be the one fighting for me?
This is still up to me, not you, not him, not her, not they
Assistant, assistant, assistance
The cry of help becomes faint with indifference
I am fighting to survive the hurdles coming my way
And I hope, I will -

HeritageFest '09

2009-07-25T06:52:00.000-07:00

It sucked. I dont get what's the point of squeezing 40 or so people onto a freaking small stage with bulky instruments, introducing us as a school which obtained Gold w Honours when we can't even produce a quality that good. And just like that, we're in the eyes of the huge public, namely the people who patronize Singapore's Largest Shopping Mall. A GwH standard huh. There was practically no place to even move my bow during Fenyong. And I already kept poking the alumni (Sorry!!!) and still there's no sound produced. And you expect Cello to play loudly. You expected 3 cellos, even with 2 there isn't any space. Then came our melody. You think there would be a miracle where we can start floating and find space to play ever-so melodiously?
I was seriously very very very pissed off, most of you could tell from my expression. As performers, as musicians, my expectations of myself isn't much. I just want to present nice, soothing music to the audience. Whoever who would stop in their footsteps to take a breather and listen to our music, would most definitely have wanted to listen to something that was music. What we produced today? Barely sound.
I'm pissed because I'm disappointed in myself as a musician, a performer on that stage with the incapabilities to bring across my passion in good music.
I'm pissed because, why take everything into your hands when you know it is not gonna work out? Is it because you know you will not be the one guilty not being able to provide musical entertainment to the public? Publicity, publicity. Thanks for trying to help us gain recognition by accepting all these offers. I was pretty hoo-ha over this Vivo perf, thinking it'd be cool. But not being able to get a stage wide enough for 40-odd people (WITH THEIR INSTRUMENTS), even after cutting our orchestra by half? No that's not working.
I dont know I was just pretty turned off by this whole event thing although it was said to be a "success" during debrief. In my opinion, it definitely was not. Maybe we were lucky and it was appropriate enough for no one in the audience to be musically inclined. And maybe we were lucky we had many Temasekians (Like the PSLs :]) there to scream and cheer even though we sucked.
Maybe people didn't think it sounded that bad. But in my opinion, it was definitely screwed.

Ok Im so happy I get to blast everything out.

On a side note, my diet's going pretty well. Gonna carry on like this, and measure my weight at the end of next week. Hopefully I've managed to shake off some pounds :D

I realised, as days pass, I'm needing you more and more. But still, Im happy enough to get that short glimpse at you today :)
I love you!

Hmmm

2009-07-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

My blog is dead dead dead dead dead.
Tmr is my O Levels' Listening Compre. Damn it, must dig ear!!!!
I am super sleepy and Im gonna sleep now and wake up early to do homework.
Im hungry leh...... How?
Yay Subway's for breakfast tmr!!!!!! :P

I dont really like Tuesdays because both Sciences are one after the other early in the morning. Makes me feel v lethargic. But Mondays are the worst because there's two hours of Lit and two hours plus of HCL. Hahaha.
Anyway Lit today was funny, except for the fact I was totally grossed out by Hakim cos he ate a bug?????!!!!! Pictures and details soon. Ew.
English was as usual, monotonous.

I am left out.
I am not left out.
I am always left out.
I am never left out.
I am alone.
I am never alone.
I am worth it.
I am not worth it.
I deserve this.
I dont deserve this at all because Im not up to it/ Because you guys dont let me be?
Hmm.

Plaguarism (sp?)

2009-07-20T04:11:00.000-07:00

Maybe I should start charging for copyright issues. Lol, you should know who you are. Actually Im pretty happy that someone is like my No.1 Fan man, from MSN nicks to blog posts. Darn glad.

Today was super funny. During Lit, all of us didn't want to present. Then Taufik and Hakim started suggesting some cranky ideas. Yusof (sp?) put eraser dust into his thumbdrive to make it not work, and true enough it didn't! Rachel and I tried to do the same.
Apparently either my eraser is of a higher quality or we didn't put enough in, the eraser dust just got stuck in the insides of the thumbdrive, but we still had to present. ): At least tmr can slack! Heh :P

PS: I am taking part in some Poem writing competition! I want to win a prize but I dont want to read my poem aloud during Cross Country. So malu! Haha.

PSS: I am absolutely in love with Taeyeon's "If". It is stuck in my head and Im trying my very best to hit the notes! Although I do not really like SNSD, I have to admit she's got a pretty good voice.

PSSS: I am officially trying to diet! I only ate a sandwich, a banana and a cup of yoghurt today! Excluding dinner. So healthy right? Also, wanna say KUDOS to JOLENE LAM CHENG MUN! We will help you!!!!!!!! Come on :D

PSSSS: I am very unhappy with my comp cos I cant connect the USB ):

O Levels' Oral (Chinese)

2009-07-14T01:15:00.000-07:00

This is the first time I can sit still for so long without even shaking my legs whilst waiting.
I felt my intestines dancing.
I really felt like shitting.
Ok, I just thought this was a more original way of saying I had butterflies in my stomach.
I.SCREWED.MY.ORALS!
Like totally.
OMG I totally didnt expect such a question! All that jamming of words and memorizing info from the news and the notes came to naught! I didn't even get to use anything.
I just blabbered some words and ya she prompted me quite a bit. I even said "Errr what's that called?" LIKE TOTALLY IN ENGLISH! LOL. I seriously need to brush up on my chinese, and not forget about my roots. Damn it.

Oh well, so oral sucked. But the part after that was fun, for me lah! Haha sorry ):
I guess cos I didn't get to flash my fullest potential of speaking during the oral, I began blabbering non-stop on the way home hahaha. Sorry if I made your ears hurt ):):): Now I feel so bad cos thinking about it, he didn't seem to get the chance to talk cos I just kept talking and talking. But thanks for listening :) Hehe I love you :)

Ok so now I have to do my work and then later get out for dinner and try to get my PURPLE tie (like ZZZ why PURPLE of all colours????) then come back home and do more work then study then watch videos then snore. :D (ok I dont snore but yeah, sleep)
Bye!

2009-07-13T05:00:00.001-07:00

I MISS YOU ):

Sigh. (How big should I enlarge this so that I can finally get this off my chest?)

Ripped apart/

2009-07-12T04:44:00.000-07:00

Maybe it's because I woke up on the wrong side of bed today. It's terrible feeling like this. My whole morning/afternnon was spent, sitting around in a daze..... feeling as though it's the last day on earth and I cant do anything about it.

I watched Jong Kook's episode on Family Outing today though, but it didn't seem to help. After laughing like shit over the show, I'm back to this hopeless state again. It feels like I'm being ripped apart;

WARNING: NC16 GORE AND VIOLENCE

Ripped apart like all of my intestines and heart and lungs are forcefully taken out of my body. Like a pair of hands just dug into my chest and pulled out my heart. Like it just tore me apart, without spilling a single drop of blood.
It messes up my insides.
I feel so distraught and helpless.
I always get these unknown feelings, like I dont even know where they came from and they just attack me suddenly leaving me clueless. I hate this kind of life. Why can't life just be about laughing days away, carefree and happy? No, that will never happen. Life is just about this. This is life. And there's nothing we can do to change it, except adapting and being slaves to it. I dont like it, but what can I do?

I dont have any motivation to do any work. I can just sit there doing nothing, but just won't get started on work. I know this isn't the way I should be living my life. I know it too well.

I miss you... I really do. I shouldn't be pressurizing you with my "I miss you"s because I know you'll feel guilty and sorry again. This is an important lap for you and I should not be any form of distraction. I'm sorry.. I really dont know what I should do. I just miss you. I cant even stop myself from drifting to thoughts of you; thoughts of us together. I smile when I think of them. Then I have to drag myself back to this cruel reality. This reality where I'm not even sure of how long we can last, how far we will go. When a new year dawns, it'll be even more difficult for us. My O Levels', your new school. I really cant help but think of these. Those sweet nothings about never letting each other go, theyre still words. I dont know, I guess I just feel insecure sometimes. I know I should be posting up all this shit on my private blog, but the feelings just came and I had to get it down somewhere. Sorry.. and I love you.

Neorago

2009-07-11T09:12:00.000-07:00

It's been long since Ive posted about Kpop but something spurred me to watch Super Junior performances for no obvious reasons and the first song that came to my mind was Neorago. Ive never watched it live but I always thought it owned Sorry Sorry by far altho Sorry Sorry was catchy.

Suju really improved on their Live performances. And I was amazed at how uberly sexy Eunhyuk has become!!!!!! Oh gosh when he shows some skin it was nosebleedable and his new hairstyle (Not that new but I never commented on it I think) is sooooo hot! And Heechul as usual likes to give winks here and there HAHA I cracked up when I saw him doing that. Dressed in white, Donghae appears as a prince charming to me as always :D Yay hot hot fishie! Yesung is smexier by the day......

Anyways Ive been eating a lot recently. Haiz.... How to burn the fats? Ytd ate dinner at Blk 511 market, this afternoon had lunch at Blk 17 (Psst all these blk here blk there ones are at Bedok if you do not know) and dinner was at A-Roy Thai Restaurant at the stretch of restaurants and cafes in Siglap. Yummmmyyyyy- and then I start regretting. Hahaha.

Must.Clear.Homework!

LOL @ Gender

2009-07-06T09:03:00.000-07:00

LOL I shouldnt be posting and should be sleeping soon but I simply have to post this! It's so farny HA HA HA HAHAHA!

(",) WEN QING says:
*SHUDDUP
*DANNY

-DANNY- says:
*she took so long
*to

(",) WEN QING says:
*OR I WILL MAKE YOU MY TWIN
*GENDERICALLY TOO
*LOL

-DANNY- says:
*find something to say

Jin How says:
*omg... triplets

-DANNY- says:
*LOL
*OMG WTF
*NUUUUUUUUUUUUU

(",) WEN QING says:
*LOL

Jin How says:
*LOL

-DANNY- says:
*I DONT WANT YOU TO BE A GUY
*LOL
*EWWW
*LOL

(",) WEN QING says:
*NO

Jin How says:
*who is a guy?

(",) WEN QING says:
*ITS YOU THATS GONNA BE CHANGED
*LOL!

-DANNY- says:
*MUSCLED WQ IS YUCKS
*LOL

(",) WEN QING says:
*LOL
*BOOBSIE DANNY IS YAY
*LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

-DANNY- says:
*WTF LOL

Jin How says:
*LOL.

-DANNY- says:
*WTFFFFFFFFF

Jin How says:
*i didnt c anything

-DANNY- says:
*NO THX

(",) WEN QING says:
*LOL
*I LAUGHING LIKE SHIT
*HAHAHAHA

Ok I gtg sleep/ laugh like crazy with my twin already.
He is crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHA OK CYA GUYS IN SCHOOL I AM FEELING DAMN GUILTY COS I SLACKED SO MUCH THIS WEEKEND SOBZ I MUST CHANGE THIS STUPID HABIT OF PROCRASTINATING AND PLAYING RESTAURANT CITY W/O DOING WORK MAN I COULD HAVE JUST LEFT IT ON BUT I KEEP STARING AT IT LIKE SOME STUPID FOOL ):

Good luck dear for your orals tmr :) Dont be so nervous and remember what I told you! Saranghae :) (HEHE)

Youth Day '09

2009-07-06T00:08:00.000-07:00

Happy Youth Day to all youths out there!
Including me altho I am quite old ):
To hungrify your Youth Day, I'll be posting up some yummy mouth-watering pics that I have taken but was lazy to upload hehe :D

Ice cream ballz!

OMG YUMMMM BROWNIE WITH ICE CREAM

Unagi:D

Yum Ichiban Sushi @ AMK Hub

The Rice Table!

Cafe Cartel :D

Ice Cream Gallery!

Korean food with Sam @ Simei :D

WARAKU @ Marina Square!

Are you feeling hungry alr? Hehe!

Ok la as you can see Im quite a food fanatic........ But today I've been deprived of food ): Only had one packet of instant noodles...... Too hungry then started to eat Kinder Bueno and Pocky. LOL DAMN THE FATS!

Youth Day is seriously boring at home. So much homework, but no mood to do as usual..... Sigh.

I miss you ):

Term 3 Day 3

2009-07-01T02:03:00.000-07:00

Hello readers :D (Though I dont even think there is anyone reading)

Hmmm, today is the third day of school, and my luggage under my table has increased significantly already! The inside half of the table is totally full HAHA. I can't believe I stock up so fast :D
I am v v v lost in Add Math. Every single topic, maybe except Binomials. But I think I forgot how to do Binomials question already. My brain is completely emptied after the holidays man! Cant even do simultaneous equations properly now. Sigh..
Had 2 free periods today, cos Mr Fowler wasn't here. I enjoy free periods when I sit alone cos I can listen to music and do work chop chop. Although I was pretty much stuck at Logarithms for Add Math HOLIDAY homework.
I was caught daydreaming during Add Math and had to move to the front. What a bad day to get caught daydreaming, cos I could tell Mr Choy was planning of making me stay there as we were gonna have new seating arrangement. (I want to switch places but I dont want to sit right in front)
During FTCT, we had a new seating arrangement! Hurray! The thing I feel about 3/8 is that, I really wanna sit with every single person! Usually you'll want to sit with your bestie like for the whole year/ 2 years. But I was really excited about switching places cos I wanna know them better. I had a huge feeling I'll end up beside Yong Wei and true enough, I did! LOL. And I'm sitting right in front.
I like sitting in front cos I concentrate better. But I dont like it cos the board is too close and it hurts my eyes. Really. Esp when the teachers use the projector. I prefer 2nd row ):

To Shao Yong:
THANKS FOR BEING MY PARTNER FOR THE FIRST HALF! Youre a great Pokemon master. LOL.

To Yong Wei:
HI-5 the geniuses are sitting tgt LOL Angelina Jolie! Haha. Anyway hope we'll really be able to help each other out. :D

I wanna do better but theres no motivation.
I really hope I can focus.
I am shocked cos the chinese teacher wants us to bring all the materials to schl tmr. But I havent done them at all. I have to complete half a year of work in 1 night. Hope I dont knock out.
It's the first time I failed anything, and I already failed 2 subjects in the first time. I cannot fail anymore. I know I have to work hard, but theres no..... will. Theres really nothing to spur me on. What am I to do?
Chinese oral is in 2 weeks time (14 July). My O level Chinese Oral. O Levels. I have to get an A1 for my O Level chinese. So that no matter what happens, my L1 is secured with 1 point. And I dont have to pia like crazy next year for O Level HCL paper which will be more difficult. I have to start speaking chinese to everyone. Altho my chinese sucks, people please try to understand and speak to me in chinese. Also, constantly remind me that I have to speak Chinese. Life is difficult but that's life for you.
我们要讲华语!

Term 3 Day 1

2009-06-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

Finally it's back to school.
And so, I managed to survive the first day.
Had more than 5 hours of "free period" with relief teachers that gave work/ no relief teacher/ relief teachers that slacked.
The only lesson that was proper was Math, which was also taken by a relief teacher.
HMT was basically testing how you read from a piece of paper so that's not proper.
How to survive every Monday with 2 hours + of HMT?

My clas had the most number of masked people today, and they were all sent home. So now our class is very dangerous! Only 25 people - 2 quarantined - 6 or 7 that were masked today = 16 people in class! Totally absurd but cool at the same time.
The H1N1 booklet is funny. "Avoid physical contact"
But to be honest, the situation is really getting bad.
Almost 600 cases already......... Scary.

Tmr. How to survive tmr when Im still chionging Add Math homewrk @ this time?
Physics + History.
Knock out.

I should quit Add Math and go to sleep now.
Good night people and good luck for the second day of schooooool! :)

H1N1 is scary.

Stupidity

2009-06-27T22:42:00.001-07:00

I think I should be hanged for being the stupidest creature on Earth.
Not even human sia, it's just creature.
I really got no brain??????????????
I bloody thought today was Saturday and thought I had 2 more days to do my homework and I was pretty confident of completing them all!!!!!!
But guess what?
I bloody realised 15 minutes ago, that it is SUNDAY.
I was still planning to go Giant with mom (Check previous post)?
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ I SHOULD BE HANGED OR MURDERED OR KILLED COS IM A DISGRACE TO THE HUMAN RACE. Agh!

Carls' Jr

2009-06-27T21:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I:

Ate bee hoon, glutinous rice and bread for one meal :O
Finished my Lit project :D
Played Restaurant City
Went down to Plaza Sing in a rush
Dressing like going TM LOL
Met mom after work
Ate at Carls' Junior for the first time
V V V V V FULL
Found out that the drinks were refillable
Went to Daiso (YAY MY SHOPPING PARADISE HAHA)
Couldn't find anything to buy though ):
Reached home at around 11pm I think
Used the comp, played Restaurant City!
Finished one Chi letter-writing! (3 down, 2 to go)

Today Im going to:

Finish all the letters!
Go to Giant the Megastore to walk ard with Mom
Eat lesser (Im getting fat D:)
Hopefully get started on Add Math homework
Play Restaurant City and hopefully level up!

Rate my mom's photography skills. LOL.

Webcam experience

2009-06-26T07:43:00.000-07:00

DAMN FUN camwhoring with Faith's webcam. When I say DAMN FUN, I MEAN IT. HAHAHA So many pictures sia!!! Looking at them I just can't help laughing and I look idiotic in most of them?????? We are so dorky! And cute too hehhhh. :D Dorky Jabbawockeez impersonatorzzz :D

This is when I first found the evil device that gets you hooked onto it.

"EH SO COOL I SEE MYSELF" I very sua ku one, okay. I dont have laptop and dont have webcam also.

And it all begins!

They all say this is the best pic but I disagree cos I look weird! LOL.

My current MSN dp!

And so we started playing with effects.

DORK!!!!!

I look nice here like finally!

Thats totally idiotic LOL.

Big head ha ha.

WIGGGGLEEEEE.

BIG BOOBS HAHAHAH WE LAUGH LIKE MAD @ THIS ONE.

Emo.

Bubbles!!!! Where is blossom and buttercup!

I like this pic cos I think we look very happy except Kai Chong who looks lost?

"MY SHINY FOREHEAD!"

OMG SO SCARY

Im Kungfu master!

Ok when you read this, CONGRATULATIONS! You managed to finish scrolling thru all the crazy pictures we took! Anyway, the Jabbawockeez Impersonatorzzz group includes: Yasmeen, Shahidah, Kai Chong, Faith and Jarrold.

THE FUNNY PART I REMEMBER BEST WAS: Kai Chong kept blocking Jarrold's face!!! And Jarrold got v v v v angry and started scolding Kai Chong. But it was so funny cos he was wearing the damned mask and it looked like some expressionless thing was reprimanding KaiChong!! Like without the angry face and stuff. DAMN FUNNY! Mood change but face still the same!! I laugh like mad. Hee!

I love these people :D

And I love PSL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

It's really like a big big beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeg family with all the loving and caring people around you who will always make you laugh till you cry, or make you cry till you laugh! Hehehe!

I really missed you alot today. ): It hurts...

Revenge of the Fallen

2009-06-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

Caught Transformers today with my Carebear :D

THE SHOW IS TOTALLY AWESOME!!!!!???????

I swear every single one of you should just go watch it man. I think even watching it alone is shiok? The whole show was action-packed from the beginning till the very end! I held in my pee all the way cos I didn't want to miss a single part!!!!
I loved the first show, and this second one didnt disappoint me one bit! And judging from the ending, there should be a part three! HEHEHE :D Can't wait!
So anyway as I wondered how I, the renowned greedy ass, managed to survive without lunch, I headed down to Novena to meet the PSLs! (Actually supposed to meet Jolene at Orchard but Zul's competition starts at 5pm as she later found out)

Went to Cold Storage to buy @#&(*)^!@%!) :D (Copy Jolene to hide secret hehe) My poor blistered feet made me walk like some duck ):

Cool right? Zul and his bro :) (They really look alike :D)
Screamed like mad for Zul :D Even wanted to do the heart sign! Heh. But the lady who sang the chinese song was really really awesome and her pronounciation is even better than me??? LOL!
I'm really proud of Zul!!!!!! He sang and played the guitar really well :)

After watching 2 more contestants after Zul, rushed to Orchard to meet mom! Had dinner at some random cafe at the basement of Far East, and the food wasn't good ): Except for the meat sauce. Managed to get my mask sprayed half-silver-faded-to-black :) It looks nicer in my opinion! No longer Batman Mask :D

Took a long bus ride home (1 hour leh sit until my backside numb), worrying if we had taken the wrong bus cos Mom was just rushing me to get on without making sure. But in the end, we took the right bus :) Hehe! Tmr still have to go back school....... Sigh. Thinking about it, tonight was supposed to be Grad Night. What difference would it have made? I really dont know.

To the mister:
I missed you the moment I boarded that train. Sorry for leaving ): And we must really really take a picture next time okay :) The movie was really great, and even greater watching it with you :) But I didnt get to hug you today ): A big change has happened tonight, really wanna tell you!!!!! Cant wait to see you again. I keep thinking of you today, are you thinking of me too? Haha. Anyways, I love you :)

Jason's farewell

2009-06-22T04:50:00.000-07:00

The emotional runway (My hair looks very long in this pic??? I like!)

Reliving the childhood

Headlines: Teenager has a hurting ass after attempting to squeeze into a car meant for 2-5 year olds.

I love see saw! Seen. (LOL GET IT?)

I look like a dork!!! (I mean my twist not even ready yet)

"ROGER CAN YOU HEAR ME"

I am the only ready one in this pic and the following pic

YONGWEI YOUR ARM IS BLOCKING MY FACE

"Let me make my hair first!!!"

Group shot

My actions always outstanding?? Look @ my leg position HA HA

I like this peekture cos the lighting looks holy

Points to I-have-no-idea-where and Idk why but Yongwei is cracking me up LOL (Jolene also!!!! And I just realised Hakim is pointing the middle finger and Jonathan is very funny too! :P) This pic so interesting harhar

"Heeeeeeeyyyyyyyy barnehhhhh" *sexy tone*

LOL @ QIAN BIAN FACE

"Ah ha haha he is tickling me ah hah haha"

Haha just some pictures to spice up this loser boring unentertaining not-so-fun zi-high blog. ):

My blog is deaddddd ):

Like me. Cos I forgot where I placed all my math homework (Both Add Math and E Math). Die!!!!!!!! And cos I've only written one para for gong han so far. Lol.

To Mr JWBC:

I think everything is explained in the card I made for you. Bon voyage, enjoy yourself there, hope you'll be happy, take care of yourself and stop smoking! Come back soon cos all of us in 3/8 miss you ):

Pitiable

2009-06-18T03:29:00.001-07:00

Been really busy recently.
Haven't even caught a single movie this holiday. Not even a single one!
So many movies I wanna watch, but I think in the end I'll only be able to watch 1 or 2. Besides there are only about less than 2 weeks left, and I have only barely run my fingers thru my homework. Zzz!
Damn, hope I have time to watch Transformers! Ive been waiting for that movie since I dont know when.

Anyway finally had PT meeting in the morning after a million years! Feeling accomplished, cos I actually managed to cover my entire agenda :D Efficient! Hehehe. (Self-praise is no good praise)
Had lunch @ pizza hut with the kiddos! Yummm!
Then had CCA. Wl had to solo today wthzzzzz Kir Hwee and Faith you two sabo me wl then the rest all join in and clap and shout and scream!!!!!!!!! It's not funny!!!!!!! All bully me sobz.

Finally back home after a tiring day and posting now while watching my restaurant reviving from bankruptcy and earning $$$. All those silly people eat alr straightaway shit. Shit still nevermind but must make the floor dirty then I have to clean toilet!!!! Wl.

Anyway enough of crap talk (cos Im lazy to upload photos), nowadays I have been thinking alot.
Everytime I look at toddlers, I think they are the most pitiable beings on this earth. Not knowing anything, thinking that the world is all about eating shitting sleeping and crying, they grow up to face this menacing society. It's just so sad to watch their innocent faces, slowly transform into selfish, evil, poor, scheming, pathetic, fearful and power-hungry faces. It's a sad situation and I cant believe I have to just sit back and watch this crazy cycle unravel over and again.

I really hate watching, it just makes me feel inferior.
Really really inferior deep inside.

Facebook

2009-06-16T06:21:00.000-07:00

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1851018846&ref=mf
I recreated Facebook because Darren threatened me to otherwise he wuoldn't give me my Milo photoshoot photos. But anyway I am hooked onto Restaurant City now altho my restaurant is v v v small and only has 8 tables. Haha. Add me please! (points to above for profile url)

Anyway good job Training Comm for P5 Camp. Altho it was rather last-minute it still turned out pretty good! Esp for Zul, first TC event and alr a good OIC :) Good job guys!
I had lots of fun with Group 8 for first camp, and Group 10 for second camp :) Hahaha cute people.

WQ, you have to tell yourself you can do it, then you really can. I will overcome everything, and do everything to the best of my abilities. I will pull through because I'm WQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes ok now I have confidence or do I? Jiayou WQ dont give up.

Off to P5 camp

2009-06-09T08:06:00.000-07:00

Yay P5 Camp.
First day was fun fun fun fun fun!
My group is so extreme:D
Extreme hyper vs Extreme dead
Hahahhaa OK off to finalise the stuff in my bag then orh-orh then its camping time! Yayyyyy I love stayoverzzzzzzz (L)
Nightwalk + Comm Bonding! :P

6 mths.

2009-06-04T22:29:00.000-07:00

Hello love.
I know I alr spammed you with a very long sms this morning, but still

Happy 6th month :)

Time really flies huh? So fast, it's been half a year alr. That night, I can still vividly remember. That kind of anxiety, that kind of nervousness, fear, jumpardy (a new random word) feeling and that kind of excitement. I still cannot believe how I even managed to say all those words. But Im glad I did :)

Memories of our past half-year:)

We started on 5Dec08 (L)

December
Watching Bolt together:D Our first movie!
We talked on the phone for 2hours 9minutes 56seconds :)

January
I went to Pahang and I missed you so much):

February
Happy Valentines' altho we were only together for only 15 minutes! But I loved your card and your bear bear :D Yes I will be your pillow! Hehe. We held hands for the first time!!!!!!!!!! :P
We went to eat ice kachang together aft schl :)
We hugged and I felt your warmth :)

March
During SLC you splashed me with water!!!!! ): But still very fun :D Hahaha.
Went to East Point to see Luo Zhi Xiang and we had our first night out! Very nice when we were sitting together at the playground :) Thank you for coming despite being very tired alr!
We watched Marley and Me aaaaand I hit you with Max Noodle! Hehe :D
Oh and you sent me a random late-night sms! Hehe :)

April
Celebrated my birthday! We watched Confessions of a Shopaholic :D Then dinner at Pastamania! Thank you for your present I am very touched really because it must have taken alot of effort! :)
May
Happy birthday :) I know I still owe you your present, but you'll get it soon! Like when we finally have time to go out to celebrate :D Oh, remember the surprise call? Hahaha!

June
You joined me and Sam at Food Expo aft your chinese paper :) I kept laughing for no reason and Im sure you thought I was mad! Haha. Loved the feeling of you gently holding me from the back, guiding me along the crowded place, and also when your hand lightly held mine :)

We've been thru really quite alot, altho no quarrels and stuff (Thinking about it, we really have no quarrels leh! Hehe), but restrictions and some obstructions....... But we managed to last half a year, and I believe we'll keep on going :) All these words aren't enough to sum up whatever we've done together and all the times spent :] But all of these will be part of our precious and lovable memories!
I really feel so silly at times, like a little girl, whenever Im with you :) I really enjoyed all the times and I really really love you so much~ Muacks! :D
Ok I am smiling to myself and my thoughts are jammed hahahaha!
Oh yeah anyway it really is okay that we can't meet up today, it's not your fault.... It's also mine for not being able to leave my house earlier! I still love you :)

Talk to you later :]

Prt Scr

2009-06-04T08:18:00.001-07:00

I just learnt how to print screen!!!!!! Haha loser, I know. But I always knew to press Prt Scr, but never to paste it somewhere. I expected some window to pop up but it never did, so I blamed it on my old desktop. Im so glad I realised I just had to paste on Paint!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Thanks to Twinneh Danny) Hahahaha Im so silly.

Hahaha my pm was: Sadistically missing you. Sigh, Chee Yan ah..........

K I was being random but I was laughing my ass off.

Tmr's The Handover.
Hope we'll all have fun.
Goodbye seniors. ):

Hello new reigning.
Hello juniors.

Right round, right round

2009-06-04T03:56:00.001-07:00

I just changed my Blogskin because Im so bored I have so many things to do but just dont feel like starting anything at all. Oh and I randomly threw in some picture I found in my hard disk at the profile area cos the "picture" that was supposed to be there was removed by Photobucket. Haha it fits pretty nicely huh! :)
On a side note, I cant believe I actually recorded myself reading 2 of those chinese oral passages that are part of the holiday homework when people dont even read thru them. I think I really am changing.
My head is still spinning from the naggings since morning. Terrible.

Sadistically missing you.